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ariverruns

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Aug 13, 2022
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I am sorry, but I am do not have the focus to go through the threads. I live in the US, and have access to less than $200. I thought I was all set when I bought 30 English Yew seeds off the large online retailer. However, this does not seem to produce results, and I see only a thread that has failure after consuming more than that.
I planned to grind 12 seeds and eat it with ice-cream, this should do it, right? I want to make sure that I am gone quick, with absolutely no other chance. Unfortunately, I am too scared of the rope or to slit my wrists. Thank you.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

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Oct 19, 2021
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Im so sorry to read this. I feel your pain. Its so unfair that people like us suffering intractable pain. In wish you PEACE, whatever you do in life.
 
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ariverruns

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Aug 13, 2022
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Im so sorry to read this. I feel your pain. Its so unfair that people like us suffering intractable pain. In wish you PEACE, whatever you do in life.
It's a funny coincidence that your join date is Oct. 19, it is one date that cannot forget. Makes it funnier that you are "Rational Man", I am atheist myself! I don't know why I am writing this!
Anyone who knows about English Yew seeds, please help.
 
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chronicallybroken

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Jul 16, 2022
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I'm sorry, I don't think 12 seeds will give you the result you desire. As you said, people have taken much more than that and survived. I know you don't have the focus right now but I advise you do some deeper research before you try anything . Best wishes
 
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ariverruns

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Aug 13, 2022
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I'm sorry, I don't think 12 seeds will give you the result you desire. As you said, people have taken much more than that and survived. I know you don't have the focus right now but I advise you do some deeper research before you try anything . Best wishes
Thanks. I needed that confirmation, what a waste of money. I looked briefly into SN. Any other suggestions for a quick exit are welcome..
 
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ariverruns

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Aug 13, 2022
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Can I please get a link for SN in the US with fast shipping? Ideally, a retail place anywhere in Chicago would be perfect. Online is fine, but I don't want to get scammed; my resources are very limited.
 
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ariverruns

Member
Aug 13, 2022
14
I ordered for SN from a LLC company in the US, a 2 lb bag (hopefully I will get it soon). So do I just weigh out 25g from the bag and mix with 50ml water? Please reply (at least by PM), I really need this info.
 
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atonofdespair24

Never enough
May 2, 2022
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I ordered for SN from a LLC company in the US, a 2 lb bag (hopefully I will get it soon). So do I just weigh out 25g from the bag and mix with 50ml water? Please reply (at least by PM), I really need this info.
Have you considered hanging? Fairly inexpensive and painless.
 
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ariverruns

Member
Aug 13, 2022
14
Have you considered hanging? Fairly inexpensive and painless.
Not really, looks gross, could be painful and I don't wanna go kickin'. Sleep looks better.
 
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atonofdespair24

Never enough
May 2, 2022
30
Not really, looks gross, could be painful and I don't wanna go kickin'. Sleep looks better.
From reports of those who did not die, it's just like falling asleep. Only gruesome for those that find the body. You go light headed, then night-night. If I remember correctly 5-15 seconds is usually time to pass out.
 
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ariverruns

Member
Aug 13, 2022
14
From reports of those who did not die, it's just like falling asleep. Only gruesome for those that find the body. You go light headed, then night-night. If I remember correctly 5-15 seconds is usually time to pass out.
C'mon, just like falling asleep?! Sources?
 
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atonofdespair24

Never enough
May 2, 2022
30
C'mon, just like falling asleep?! Sources?
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-to-hang-yourself.1183/page-2

There's a member who seems to be well informed in this thread.
 
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ariverruns

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Aug 13, 2022
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You made me think about it. But I for now, my choice is either a hotel bed or a park bench. That member did not come back to complain (imagine his last words - screw hanging! I should have gone with SN aagh, aagh!), I'll give you that!
 

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