sadlyexisting
I don't know who I am anymore.
- Jun 26, 2023
- 110
So, I think my time has finally come to leave this fucked up planet. I am planning on going with partial suspension.
I've checked everything, my support holds my full body weight and the rope is thick enough to cut off my carotid arteries.
The only thing that's left is to write a suicide note, I will focus on that in the next few days.
I am still going to university, so I am going to hint to them that I won't see them anymore after Friday, and say an indirect forever goodbye.
When I am home I am going to spend my last few days with my poor dog, go on a last walk together and play with her for the last time.
I know already that I will miss her the most, she is the most important part of my life and probably the best thing that ever happened to me.
Since she is always in my room at night she will watch me die. I can't stand that thought, but I am done with my shit life. I just hope she doesn't alert my parents.
For my online friends, I am going to prepare a scheduled email, so that they know what happened to me.
And yeah, that's about it. Since I am not sure if I will actually go through with it, I will keep you guys updated.
I also just want to thank this community for everything.
In the last few months, I've found that I am not the only one feeling this way, and finally found comfort and peace in wanting to die.
Thank you for everything, I'll never forget you, even if I get better, you'll always have a place in my heart.
I love you!
I've checked everything, my support holds my full body weight and the rope is thick enough to cut off my carotid arteries.
The only thing that's left is to write a suicide note, I will focus on that in the next few days.
I am still going to university, so I am going to hint to them that I won't see them anymore after Friday, and say an indirect forever goodbye.
When I am home I am going to spend my last few days with my poor dog, go on a last walk together and play with her for the last time.
I know already that I will miss her the most, she is the most important part of my life and probably the best thing that ever happened to me.
Since she is always in my room at night she will watch me die. I can't stand that thought, but I am done with my shit life. I just hope she doesn't alert my parents.
For my online friends, I am going to prepare a scheduled email, so that they know what happened to me.
And yeah, that's about it. Since I am not sure if I will actually go through with it, I will keep you guys updated.
I also just want to thank this community for everything.
In the last few months, I've found that I am not the only one feeling this way, and finally found comfort and peace in wanting to die.
Thank you for everything, I'll never forget you, even if I get better, you'll always have a place in my heart.
I love you!
