People with 500+ posts, what's your reasoning for sticking around so much?

[Cauliflour]

I'll start: I have stuff I wanna do before I kick the bucket, but I also have a lot of thoughts and feelings I can't discuss with anyone so I just come here in phases and spout some nonsense. I don't know when I will actually do it, but I know I will one day...

I've hung around the suicide board so much though that I'm starting to repeat my points due to the limited amount of post topics that forum tends to have. This forum has more variety but I like doom and gloom.

 

[tonicer]

I also have a bucket list of things i want to experience before my time is up. I am mainly here to find some sort of solace and knowledge that i am not alone. The more I interact with people here, the less I feel like I'm from another world or dimension.

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

I am still suicidal but I want to try and help other people/animals. I feel like I haven't been the person I wanted to be for a long while, I do not want to live but I believe I am indebted to a small part of humanity and a big part of the animal kingdom.

 

[avoid]

Haven't reached 500 posts yet but I may eventually reach it. I'm not (actively) suicidal, just depressed, and fortunately less so since last year. The reason I gave for joining the forum reflects this, which indicates that you don't need to be depressed or suicidal to be on this forum.

The reason I stick around is because this forum is a breath of fresh air on the internet. This is one of the few online space (that I know) that has little to no taboos and where people can speak their mind. Many members act mature here. And there are a lot of insightful members here that offer all sorts of advice and information.

 

[itsgone2]

I don't know. Fear is most likely answer. I've posted too much. I don't know what I'm seeking. I had a chance at a good life but couldn't take things a day at a time and messed it all up. I wasn't meant for this world but can't escape it. This place lets me vent if nothing else. I've made a few friends though one left to focus on recovery and one must have finally ctb. Just a mess. Life isn't a blessing for everyone

 

[Hystearical]

500+? Not me sitting at almost 5,000...

 

[Wojaczek]

too scared to die, so i just rot in purgatory for now

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm waiting for my Dad to go first. So- ironically- I'm using the site to distract and comfort me while I still feel like I need to be here. I could tell from the very start that it was a really interesting place to be with all the philosophical conversations going on.

It's also somewhere I am free to be honest about how I truly feel- without either making friends and family panic or worry. Plus- it's refreshing to not be met by weak platitudes, shock or disgust over discussing suicide. All of which make me feel worse.

 

[noname223]

500+? Not me sitting at almost 5,000...

Damn I wanted to post something like that.

500 posts? Hold my beer...

 

[Cauliflour]

500+? Not me sitting at almost 5,000...

How'd you manage that?

 

[Hystearical]

How'd you manage that?

I mash the keyboard

 

[unluckysadness]

Probably the fear of the unknown and the pain my death will cause to my family. And SI is extremely powerful as we know...

too scared to die, so i just rot in purgatory for now

I could have answered the same thing

 

[noname223]

How'd you manage that?

I think being a mass poster on here is an autistic special interest of me.

 

[Seneca65AD]

Obviously not at 500 but I can see myself getting there. The main reason I stick around is becuase I feel SaSu is a safe place to discuss what I'm feeling and thinking without being judged. It gives me an emotional comfort blanket that when/if I do decide to commit fully, I'll be understood.

 

[Forveleth]

I have a rule to not make an attempt until I feel ready. I have ywt to feel ready again since my previous attempt so here I am.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

For me, SI is a complete bitch and I'm at its mercy after a failed attempt several years ago. The whole event was very traumatic for me, because not only were police and ambulance crews banging at my door while I was living with other people, but multiple nosy individuals got involved, and it basically completely changed how I was perceived for the worst.

After that incident, I am really terrified of the consequences of failure, because I know what can happen in the both of best and worst case scenarios. So I am still here, because of my own cowardice. Maybe some people think my feelings aren't true, due to the length of time I've been experiencing them, but the pain cuts just as deep, if not deeper, as when I joined several years ago.

Also, I find it comforting to converse with others who might understand me, with the added bonus that maybe I can help them feel a bit less awful as well.

 

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[FoxSauce]

Ups and downs ig . Feel sad then normal to happy and so on.