its so weird having your family find you mid attempt and have them actually show some level of care for you. its actually very annoying because when i said i was going to kill myself for years none of you took it seriously. i dont get why i have to literally almost die before these people decide to care about me
Most people deal with each other at a superficial level. Seldom does someone take another aside and say, "I have something important to tell you". As a result people can "translate" what you say into familiar patterns such that when you say you are suicidal, someone may "translate" that into "I feel bad today". As a result they are not hearing what you really mean.
If you take someone aside and specifically share the depth of your pain, they still may not understand because there is nothing they might see that they could do that would be helpful. They might even resent you for making them feel so uncomfortable or they might want to "plug you into" some resource to "solve the problem".
Frequently those who might be more sensitive than average come to feel suicidal with a contributing factor of not having a deeper connection with those around them. This can be reduced by encountering someone else who is able to connect at a deeper level. This is not always easy as depth is not frequently encountered.
People without much depth still care, but they may not be able to show it with depth.
If you take someone aside and specifically share the depth of your pain, they still may not understand because there is nothing they might see that they could do that would be helpful. They might even resent you for making them feel so uncomfortable or they might want to "plug you into" some resource to "solve the problem".
Frequently those who might be more sensitive than average come to feel suicidal with a contributing factor of not having a deeper connection with those around them. This can be reduced by encountering someone else who is able to connect at a deeper level. This is not always easy as depth is not frequently encountered.
People without much depth still care, but they may not be able to show it with depth.
