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Arlowantsushi

Arlowantsushi

Trying my best
Feb 4, 2026
16
I don't understand how no one had heard my cry's for help the past month.

I've stopped talking to my best friends and have been trying to hint to my family i'm not going well but they all are so focused on themselves (making me focused on them cuz i don't want them to be sad/upset) that they don't realize im on the verge of CTB.
 
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catsalvation

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Sep 13, 2025
87
I'm sorry... I literally told someone in the past and he didn't care. (Even though he wanted us to move-in together just 3 months earlier.) Anyway... I see the good side of it, at least I don't have to feel guilty for making anyone sad.
 
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Arlowantsushi

Arlowantsushi

Trying my best
Feb 4, 2026
16
I'm sorry... I literally told someone in the past and he didn't care. (Even though he wanted us to move-in together just 3 months earlier.) Anyway... I see the good side of it, at least I don't have to feel guilty for making anyone sad.
i'm sorry dude i totally understand.
you're right tho.

the thing that pisses me off is the same people who ignored all the signs and don't care are gonna be the ones milking my death so heavily.
 
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Realgar

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Aug 19, 2024
84
I mentioned it to my family, in one ear and out the other!!
 
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fedup1982

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Jul 17, 2025
510
I'm sorry you're cries for help weren't heard. Sometimes you have to be very blunt with people. I highly suggest you tell your family you sincerely want to put a bullet through your brain.
 
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39hatsune

39hatsune

seal connoisseur!
Dec 9, 2025
109
im sorry for your situation :(

if you ever need someone to talk to, my dms are open! i really dont mind

take care of yourself 💗🫂
 

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