Venting People are just waiting for me to die

[Some place nice]

I feel like almost everyone is waiting for me to ctb. My mom ignores my SH and has ignored my past attempts, the middle child just says "oh." And the oldest would just say "you're not special." And well, in fact i am nit special dont mean it hurts to know that she wont care. The only 2 people in my life who would care would be my baby niece and my bf. I'd feel guilty that I would be leaving but, at least i can stop being in pain and stressing out for a person who is just waiting for me to ctb. I would be at peace finally.

 

[AnHeroTransGirl]

Is there any way you can take some steps to move in with your boyfriend? Also if your mother is neglectful of you CTB attempts then that's extra concerning for your niece as I'm sure she might be ignoring some aspects of your niece's needs if your mother has custody of her. I'm not gonna try to stop you from CTBing but if blatant SH and CTB attempts are being ignored, the ones who actually care about you might be at risk.

 

[Some place nice]

Is there any way you can take some steps to move in with your boyfriend? Also if your mother is neglectful of you CTB attempts then that's extra concerning for your niece as I'm sure she might be ignoring some aspects of your niece's needs if your mother has custody of her. I'm not gonna try to stop you from CTBing but if blatant SH and CTB attempts are being ignored, the ones who actually care about you might be at risk.

My sister made it to where my mom cant have custody of her so she lives with her dad who is a good dad.