Partial suspension works FAST (info inside)

[pinstripe]

I attempted to ctb using partial suspension recently. I mostly intended it as a rehearsal session, trying to desensitize my survival instinct but if it happened it happened. I was utterly amazed at how quickly it went. I used a belt with a shirt tucked around my neck with the shirt bunched up on either side of my esophagus to press more directly on the arteries. I had the other end of the belt closed over a bathroom door with 2 allan wrench keys through the grommetted belt holes for added support and bracing against the doorframe. I leaned down into it and let my partial weight go into the shirt. I only barely and vaguely felt a tinge of survival instinct... And then I was gone.

I started dreaming immediately. There was no sensation or realization that I passed out. Just an immediate departure. I think the only reason I ever woke up was how the sway of my body started my forehead against the doorframe. Some part of my brain clicked on and I realized I was hanging. The immediate horror of being alive kicked in and I screamed, hit my hand against the wall, and wrenched the belt off my neck. It was insanely frustrating to still be alive but it was fascinating and somewhat comforting to get so close to the finish line and not even know it. I had to sit down and recover for a second.

I don't know how long I was out but it was long enough to cause the capillaries in my left eye to burst and my face to become mottled like a full bruise for the next 2 days. It was honestly so very comforting after the fact though to know how quickly and easily it happens. And if I want to end it, I can just secure the part of the belt against the back of my neck a little better and face the other way so the swaying doesn't hit anything.

The dreaming was interesting. I imagine it's because of the trapped blood flow but the dreaming made me feel like I was just somewhere else and not suspended. It was like it immediately wiped away what I was doing from my consciousness. I couldn't begin to say what I was dreaming about, just that it had familiar trauma informed content. But I would have died and not even know it if I stayed that way and that's imo one of the best ways to go.

So yeah if you position it right, hanging works FAST. Like your survival instinct doesn't even really have a chance to do anything.

 

[Not_A_Seagull]

what is partial suspension?

 

[Forveleth]

what is partial suspension?

It is when you "hang" yourself except you are still touching the ground. See here:

How to hang yourself

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I attempted to ctb using partial suspension recently. I mostly intended it as a rehearsal session, trying to desensitize my survival instinct but if it happened it happened. I was utterly amazed at how quickly it went. I used a belt with a shirt tucked around my neck with the shirt bunched up on either side of my esophagus to press more directly on the arteries. I had the other end of the belt closed over a bathroom door with 2 allan wrench keys through the grommetted belt holes for added support and bracing against the doorframe. I leaned down into it and let my partial weight go into the shirt. I only barely and vaguely felt a tinge of survival instinct... And then I was gone.

I started dreaming immediately. There was no sensation or realization that I passed out. Just an immediate departure. I think the only reason I ever woke up was the away of my body was banging my forehead against the doorframe. Some part of my brain clicked on and I realized I was hanging. The immediate horror of being alive kicked in and I screamed, hit by hand against the wall and wrenches the belt off my neck. It was insanely frustrating to still be alive. I had to sit down and let the shakes wear off.

I don't know how long I was out but it was long enough to cause the capillaries in my left eye to burst and my face to become mottled like a full bruise for the next 2 days. It was honestly so very comforting after the fact though to know how quickly and easily it happens. And if I want to end it, just secure the part of the belt against the back of my neck a little better and face the other way so the swaying doesn't hit anything.

The dreaming was interesting. I imagine it's because of the trapped blood flow. I couldn't begin to say what I was dreaming about, just that it had the familiar trauma informed content. But I would have died and not even known I died if I stayed that way and that's imo one of the best ways to go.

So yeah if you position it right, hanging works FAST. Like your survival instinct doesn't even really have a chance to do anything.

I found this too with partial. Once you get the position right, it is pretty instant lights out. I did not dream but then again, I woke up pretty quickly by standing up while apparently unconscious.

Your setup sounds pretty ingenious. I am impressed. I am sorry you went through all that just to wake up. Just remember to be gentle to yourself for a bit, attempts can be scary whether you mean them or not.

 

[pinstripe]

Thanks and gentleness extended to you as well.

There's at least some comfort in knowing how fast it can be over

 

[SummerChristmasEve]

I don't know if you've ever tried with actual rope, but do you feel like the flat shape of the belt made this easier to achieve? I've tried partial hanging with a normal rope several times and I can't get the right amount of pressure on my neck.

Partial hanging gives me so much hope for a peaceful end, but I need to perfect the technique!

 

[RoseGirl]

I don't know if you've ever tried with actual rope, but do you feel like the flat shape of the belt made this easier to achieve? I've tried partial hanging with a normal rope several times and I can't get the right amount of pressure on my neck.

Partial hanging gives me so much hope for a peaceful end, but I need to perfect the technique!

for me i needed to have the rope really really far up against my neck. You also need to try and apply the pressure quickly in order to cut off blood flow and not feel head explody

 

[pinstripe]

I don't know if you've ever tried with actual rope, but do you feel like the flat shape of the belt made this easier to achieve? I've tried partial hanging with a normal rope several times and I can't get the right amount of pressure on my neck.

Partial hanging gives me so much hope for a peaceful end, but I need to perfect the technique!

Rope or belt or anything, what made all the difference was the t shirt I added with the pressure around the arteries. I think making it comfortable and blocking the carotid arteries is the real trick to this.

Don't need to try very hard; Don't need to suffer; All items needed are typically available... Just making sure any movement doesn't free the pressure is all it takes

 

[SummerChristmasEve]

Rope or belt or anything, what made all the difference was the t shirt I added with the pressure around the arteries. I think making it comfortable and blocking the carotid arteries is the real trick to this.

Don't need to try very hard; Don't need to suffer; All items needed are typically available... Just making sure any movement doesn't free the pressure is all it takes

Are you standing, kneeling or sitting down while doing this?

 

[Heartbroken Nurse]

This is comforting. I tried this method, a little bit differently, over a year ago and felt myself slipping away. My preferred method is exit bag or SN but having trouble getting all of the supplies as I am just a normal individual. This may be the way that I go out, just like my dad. But I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I'm afraid of survival and permanent brain injury. I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid of surviving.

 

[WPack]

This is nice info to hear for some of us making the decision

 

[2muchpain2]

this is how I'm planning on ctb. thank you for sharing your experience. this is how robin williams did it, well not the door and stuff, but the belt. i think he used the closet rod. ? anthony bourdain used the door and a belt from a robe.

 

[verybabybunny]

I tried it with a scarf last year and following Kate Spade's death, used a silk one. She used her door knob from reports. I used my closet rod.

I had to be cut down. If I wouldn't have been caught I woud not be here writing this right now. My neck was bruised and lacerated for probably 14 days. But I was out, cold. And I must have tied something right because I went out, FAST. I awoke to somebody over me trying desperately to untie it. He had picked up my body to garner slack and I opened my eyes. I was confused and motioned toward scissors. I could barely talk after.

I was out so cold I forgot I had tried to kill myself until he picked my ass up. Dreaming like OP was. Random stuff.

It is my choice for any future attempts.

 

[pinstripe]

Are you standing, kneeling or sitting down while doing this?

I was standing.

I tried it with a scarf last year and following Kate Spade's death, used a silk one. She used her door knob from reports. I used my closet rod.

I had to be cut down. If I wouldn't have been caught I woud not be here writing this right now. My neck was bruised and lacerated for probably 14 days. But I was out, cold. And I must have tied something right because I went out, FAST. I awoke to somebody over me trying desperately to untie it. He had picked up my body to garner slack and I opened my eyes. I was confused and motioned toward scissors. I could barely talk after.

I was out so cold I forgot I had tried to kill myself until he picked my ass up. Dreaming like OP was. Random stuff.

It is my choice for any future attempts.

Yeah I thought a helium exit bag was my preferred method for a long time. Turns out to be a lot more challenging to get that to work.

There's some great comfort in how quickly and easily it came when I was hanging. Dreaming was a benefit because it made me feel like I was doing something else than dying. It's like dying without realizing I'm dying and that's a lovely way to go.

 

[Frenchy222]

Thanks for sharing. The same thing happened to me twice while practicing. However, I found myself seconds later unconsciously trying to get back on my feet. I wish I could figure out how to stop this.

Are you male or female? Where was the belt located on your neck?

Thanks!

 

[GoingHome11:11]

I attempted to ctb using partial suspension recently. I mostly intended it as a rehearsal session, trying to desensitize my survival instinct but if it happened it happened. I was utterly amazed at how quickly it went. I used a belt with a shirt tucked around my neck with the shirt bunched up on either side of my esophagus to press more directly on the arteries. I had the other end of the belt closed over a bathroom door with 2 allan wrench keys through the grommetted belt holes for added support and bracing against the doorframe. I leaned down into it and let my partial weight go into the shirt. I only barely and vaguely felt a tinge of survival instinct... And then I was gone.

I started dreaming immediately. There was no sensation or realization that I passed out. Just an immediate departure. I think the only reason I ever woke up was how the sway of my body started my forehead against the doorframe. Some part of my brain clicked on and I realized I was hanging. The immediate horror of being alive kicked in and I screamed, hit my hand against the wall, and wrenched the belt off my neck. It was insanely frustrating to still be alive but it was fascinating and somewhat comforting to get so close to the finish line and not even know it. I had to sit down and recover for a second.

I don't know how long I was out but it was long enough to cause the capillaries in my left eye to burst and my face to become mottled like a full bruise for the next 2 days. It was honestly so very comforting after the fact though to know how quickly and easily it happens. And if I want to end it, I can just secure the part of the belt against the back of my neck a little better and face the other way so the swaying doesn't hit anything.

The dreaming was interesting. I imagine it's because of the trapped blood flow but the dreaming made me feel like I was just somewhere else and not suspended. It was like it immediately wiped away what I was doing from my consciousness. I couldn't begin to say what I was dreaming about, just that it had familiar trauma informed content. But I would have died and not even know it if I stayed that way and that's imo one of the best ways to go.

So yeah if you position it right, hanging works FAST. Like your survival instinct doesn't even really have a chance to do anything.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I've come to the conclusion that this is the way I want to go after years of weighing different methods. I'm still here because like someone else said above, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm SUPER afraid of surviving and being messed up, but your method gives me the most hope out of everything I've read so far. It sounds so peaceful.

So I see that you said you were standing. That seems best since you won't have the instinct to stand up when unconscious like a lot of people do, but I'm just a little confused on your positioning. Were you facing the door? If so, how did you put pressure on the belt since it seems you wouldn't be able to lean forward if you were facing the door. Did you lean backward instead? Also, how tight was the belt? Did you tighten it as much as you could or did you rely on leaning in some way to put more pressure on it?

I tried it with a scarf last year and following Kate Spade's death, used a silk one. She used her door knob from reports. I used my closet rod.

I had to be cut down. If I wouldn't have been caught I woud not be here writing this right now. My neck was bruised and lacerated for probably 14 days. But I was out, cold. And I must have tied something right because I went out, FAST. I awoke to somebody over me trying desperately to untie it. He had picked up my body to garner slack and I opened my eyes. I was confused and motioned toward scissors. I could barely talk after.

I was out so cold I forgot I had tried to kill myself until he picked my ass up. Dreaming like OP was. Random stuff.

It is my choice for any future attempts.

I keep thinking about Kate Spade too whenever I consider this method. I was thinking of using a satin necktie, but I see you said you used a silk scarf. How did you do that? Was it a really long scarf? Did you just use regular knots both around your neck and the rod? And did you put anything in between the scarf and your neck to put more pressure on your arteries like the original poster did? Were you standing as well?

Sorry for asking so many questions. I just really want to get this method right, so I want all of the info I can get

 

[pinstripe]

Are you male or female? Where was the belt located on your neck?

Male and 6ft tall. The door is about 7.5ft tall. The belt was around the upper part of my throat. The real secret ingredient was the shirt I used as a buffer between my neck and the belt. When I've tried rope or anything like that before it puts too much pressure on the front part of the throat and not enough on the carotid arteries. Bunching a shirt up to apply more soft comfortable and consistent pressure on the arteries while leaving the center of the throat more open was the trick. No survival instinct kicked in and I was out in I want to say 5 seconds before I could even realize it.

I see that you said you were standing. That seems best since you won't have the instinct to stand up when unconscious like a lot of people do, but I'm just a little confused on your positioning. Were you facing the door? If so, how did you put pressure on the belt since it seems you wouldn't be able to lean forward if you were facing the door. Did you lean backward instead? Also, how tight was the belt? Did you tighten it as much as you could or did you rely on leaning in some way to put more pressure on it?

Standing just made the most sense given the length of the belt vs the top of the door.

For positioning the belt was wedged in the top of the closed door closest to the hinges. My belt has grommeted holes so I used allen wrenches inserted into those to help brace it against the other side of the door. I was facing toward the door by the corner. Since the belt was pretty short my options for positioning were limited.

While unconscious I think I was swaying a little and hitting my forehead on the door frame which is what I think eventually woke me up. I had a bruise on my forehead in addition to the other damage from the experience (burst blood vessel in eye and mottled skin). If I did it again with more intention I would choose to face the other direction, away from the door.

The other thing I think woke me up is maybe slight slack in the belt. It was tightened by its own loop and my weight through gravity. The only survival instinct comes from waking up so I think a belt that doesn't loosen easily (like a ratchet style belt) would be good. Just don't want to wake up.

Again I think the magic was in added padding from the shirt I used. A belt or rope or necktie or scarf or anything by itself has too much dead-on pressure. Having a shirt or towel or some form of additional padding to apply consistent direct pressure on the carotid arteries while not affecting anything else is the secret ingredient to all of this imo.

 

[Off_Switch]

This method would be so perfect and convenient for me...if it didn't require maximum will power. I need a method where I can fall asleep while it's happening.

 

[_RustyLeaf321]

Male and 6ft tall. The door is about 7.5ft tall. The belt was around the upper part of my throat. The real secret ingredient was the shirt I used as a buffer between my neck and the belt. When I've tried rope or anything like that before it puts too much pressure on the front part of the throat and not enough on the carotid arteries. Bunching a shirt up to apply more soft comfortable and consistent pressure on the arteries while leaving the center of the throat more open was the trick. No survival instinct kicked in and I was out in I want to say 5 seconds before I could even realize it.



Standing just made the most sense given the length of the belt vs the top of the door.

For positioning the belt was wedged in the top of the closed door closest to the hinges. My belt has grommeted holes so I used allen wrenches inserted into those to help brace it against the other side of the door. I was facing toward the door by the corner. Since the belt was pretty short my options for positioning were limited.

While unconscious I think I was swaying a little and hitting my forehead on the door frame which is what I think eventually woke me up. I had a bruise on my forehead in addition to the other damage from the experience (burst blood vessel in eye and mottled skin). If I did it again with more intention I would choose to face the other direction, away from the door.

The other thing I think woke me up is maybe slight slack in the belt. It was tightened by its own loop and my weight through gravity. The only survival instinct comes from waking up so I think a belt that doesn't loosen easily (like a ratchet style belt) would be good. Just don't want to wake up.

Again I think the magic was in added padding from the shirt I used. A belt or rope or necktie or scarf or anything by itself has too much dead-on pressure. Having a shirt or towel or some form of additional padding to apply consistent direct pressure on the carotid arteries while not affecting anything else is the secret ingredient to all of this imo.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It truly is of high value for people like me who are trying to aim for a night-night/partial hang method, since the night-night got a bad reputation for demanding precise pinpointing of the arteries and coreectly applied pressure. Your thread gives a lot of courage!
Even though i know it doesn't promise anything, it gives hope, and interesting advices to try. Thanks

 

[GoingHome11:11]

Male and 6ft tall. The door is about 7.5ft tall. The belt was around the upper part of my throat. The real secret ingredient was the shirt I used as a buffer between my neck and the belt. When I've tried rope or anything like that before it puts too much pressure on the front part of the throat and not enough on the carotid arteries. Bunching a shirt up to apply more soft comfortable and consistent pressure on the arteries while leaving the center of the throat more open was the trick. No survival instinct kicked in and I was out in I want to say 5 seconds before I could even realize it.



Standing just made the most sense given the length of the belt vs the top of the door.

For positioning the belt was wedged in the top of the closed door closest to the hinges. My belt has grommeted holes so I used allen wrenches inserted into those to help brace it against the other side of the door. I was facing toward the door by the corner. Since the belt was pretty short my options for positioning were limited.

While unconscious I think I was swaying a little and hitting my forehead on the door frame which is what I think eventually woke me up. I had a bruise on my forehead in addition to the other damage from the experience (burst blood vessel in eye and mottled skin). If I did it again with more intention I would choose to face the other direction, away from the door.

The other thing I think woke me up is maybe slight slack in the belt. It was tightened by its own loop and my weight through gravity. The only survival instinct comes from waking up so I think a belt that doesn't loosen easily (like a ratchet style belt) would be good. Just don't want to wake up.

Again I think the magic was in added padding from the shirt I used. A belt or rope or necktie or scarf or anything by itself has too much dead-on pressure. Having a shirt or towel or some form of additional padding to apply consistent direct pressure on the carotid arteries while not affecting anything else is the secret ingredient to all of this imo.

Thank you so much. This helped tremendously, it makes much more sense to me now. I'm so scared of somehow waking up because like you said that's when SI kicks in and depending on how long you've been out, that's also when brain damage can happen. I think given all of the things that need to be in sync to successfully do partial, I think I'm now leaning more towards the night-night method.

 

[hell toupee]

Thanks for sharing. The same thing happened to me twice while practicing. However, I found myself seconds later unconsciously trying to get back on my feet. I wish I could figure out how to stop this.

Are you male or female? Where was the belt located on your neck?

Thanks!

In the hanging megathread there is a linked study where scientists observed 8 live streamed hangings and accidental auto-erotic asphyxiation deaths. In all 8 of those instances, the scientists observed the people straightening and extending their legs while unconscious.

This is why partial is so difficult to get right for most people, and also why it can be dangerous. Partial depends on specific rope/knot placement and body positioning. Any disruption to that, and blood pressure could be restored to the brain.

So you went unconscious, and either straightened your legs, or convulsions caused your body to jerk around and disrupted the occlusion of the carotid arteries and you woke back up. Disorientation and confusion are also very common behaviours waking up from a blood choke.

I say dangerous because you could wake up with brain damage, bursted capillaries all over your face, a big purple bruise around your neck, and/or a possible broken hyoid bone - all of which would be incredibly difficult to explain if you are around other people. I originally wanted to use partial as my method, but the more I researched it, the more I became convinced that if you are going to hang yourself, full suspension is the best way to do that. As long as your rope and anchor don't break, you are basically guaranteed CTB and unsaveable in about 20 minutes.