So I just tried again. I'm not totally disabled but it's hard for me to bend or k n e e l. I am mostly laying in bed or sitting on the chair for a little bit. I have deadly poison inside my body called gadolinium and I suffer from chronic pain that is way too much for me to stay on this earth. I also suffer from benzo diazepine withdrawal. I have been trying to partially hang myself since last October. Today I did it and I had to kneel down and I mess up my lower back my hips and most likely a lot of other parts of my body so now I'm in worse pain right now I'm just laying in bed with everything spasming out. I can't I can't get it right I can't get a good height I can't lean into it because of my inability to kneel or be on the floor. Could somebody help me as of now with the pain is worse as it is I need some advice on how to get out of here I was very desperate and now I'm even more desperate. If anybody could please help me I would appreciate it.
I have a shitload of pills but I know that won't work. I really am wanting to hang myself. My life is unbearable. It's inhumane the pain that I Endure.
I have a shitload of pills but I know that won't work. I really am wanting to hang myself. My life is unbearable. It's inhumane the pain that I Endure.
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