Venting Panic attacks/panic disorder and CTB

[motherofmahesh]

I am so frustrated knowing that anything that alters my breathing and heart rate stands to thrust me into a panic attack.

I want to go but I have not only the natural apprehension that one would have that once the plan is underway there is no turning back, but the added fear of feeling unadulterated terror if my heart beats faster or my breathing becomes restricted. It would have been easier if I could have done it before September/October of 2022 before I suddenly started getting panic attacks.

I hate this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine that must be tiring what you are going through, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[motherofmahesh]

I imagine that must be tiring what you are going through, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you

 

[Z-A]

Same boat. Mine started early previous year. I'm taking meds, alprazolam and sertraline daily because none of the therapies have helped. I know exactly what you're going through, it's a cycle and a routine of constant worry and panicking that lead to terrorising physical symptoms that feels like dying.

I'm sorry you have to deal with this, it's unfair, undeserved and unnecessary. Was the main reason why I landed here.

With a chronic condition like this, it's hard to see a future. I hope everyone who suffers with mental or physical illnesses will be able to find peace either here or on the other side.

I wish you the best. Keep your head up.

 

[ineedyoutoloveme]

Our anxiety is likely very different as mine stems from chronic stress rather than a panic-type of feeling, but have you ever tried light pot usage? If that's not your lifestyle I completely understand, but wow I didn't realize how tense and stressed I was all the time until I started smoking. Definitely also helpful in conquering anxiety in regards to SI when attempting to CTB.

 

[motherofmahesh]

Our anxiety is likely very different as mine stems from chronic stress rather than a panic-type of feeling, but have you ever tried light pot usage? If that's not your lifestyle I completely understand, but wow I didn't realize how tense and stressed I was all the time until I started smoking. Definitely also helpful in conquering anxiety in regards to SI when attempting to CTB.

I actually used to enjoy it but unfortunately it no longer agrees with me :(

Same boat. Mine started early previous year. I'm taking meds, alprazolam and sertraline daily because none of the therapies have helped. I know exactly what you're going through, it's a cycle and a routine of constant worry and panicking that lead to terrorising physical symptoms that feels like dying.

I'm sorry you have to deal with this, it's unfair, undeserved and unnecessary. Was the main reason why I landed here.

With a chronic condition like this, it's hard to see a future. I hope everyone who suffers with mental or physical illnesses will be able to find peace either here or on the other side.

I wish you the best. Keep your head up.

I've always struggled with depression and anxiety so I've lived with that forever. I started getting panic attacks and other weird symptoms during an extremely difficult time of my life a couple of years ago. I was told by my therapist that I have PTSD but who knows anymore.
I'm really angry that no matter what I try to do for myself everything just continues to get worse. I'm so angry about whatever it is that gave me PTSD. I used to try so hard to not let my mental health take me down. I wanted to have fun and live in a way that finally gave my life some meaning. I had hobbies and things I enjoyed but now I'm just dead inside. None of it matters. I let someone else suck everything out of me and blame me for all of it.