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fatpigiee

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Feb 14, 2026
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When they try to wake me up they'll be VERY VIOLENT it really freak me out. I can't explain how much it affects my mentality
Waking up on someone beating you up and screaming at you while YOU DON'T KNOW WHY , my sleep is so heavy it takes so much time for me to possess things and i already have awful nightmares every night, i wake up half asleep and mix the nightmares and the reality its so scary i can't even remember why am i awake its just like waking up from a nightmare to a nightmare
I don't know what to do
Its killing me I'm scared of waking up tomorrow already
When they wake me up in bad ways i can't calm my self down the whole day. It makes me very anxious and my panic attacks is much worse
I hate that i have to be grateful i hate that it makes them tired too
Its not my fault that my sleep is heavy i didn't choose it to be like that it not fair
It messes up everything my parents are mad at me and its my fault for something i can't control
No an alarm won't work none of them work
I don't know what to do:(
Idk if its from depression or im having a real sleeping disorders but my sleep is awful all the time
I'm having nightmares every night, i walk in my sleep ,i cry and scream in my sleep ,its so hard to wake me up ,i sleep too much and still be sleepy and tired all day
I can't control my self in my sleep
Sometimes i accidentally hit my parents when they try to wake me upđź’€ and they will punish me for it so bad but DIDN'T MEAN TO i wasn't awake i didn't control my self its not fair.
I sleep+14 h lately and they WILL wake me up one way or another
I don't know what it's called but this feeling where my body physically feel so stressed and on the edge i can't make my self calm down
 
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NihilusVan

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Oct 1, 2025
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Have you received any treatment for your sleeping issues? Maybe a professional could help, idk, or at least make it less severe.
 
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JassieDusk

To exist is to stand within reach of suffering
Oct 5, 2025
124
I have/had the same issue as you. My mother woke me up violently while I was living with her and now that I'm living alone and have to earn for myself I don't go to sleep at all because I know no alarm will wake me up in time unless I slept for 15+ hours. I'm severely sleep deprived and jealous of people who have light sleep
 
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