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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
112
That's what I wish for.
However, it's too good to be true.

The process of dying scares me to no end. I've seen videos of people dying and the way their bodies go limp its uncanny.

N seems to be the only thing that could give a painless and peaceful death but it's nowhere to be found due to its lethality and its sole purpose.

I wish to just close my eyes and not wake up.
I don't want to be covered in sweat and vomit.
Don't want to feel like I need to throw my organs up.
Don't want to feel like my neck is getting crushed.
And I don't want my remains to be splattered all over some tracks.

Does anybody else feel like this or am I just being a whiny bitch who doesn't have the balls to go through the painful process?
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
80
Hey count me as another whiny bitch too than 😆😭
 
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soul2realm

Member
Oct 12, 2025
167
Same here, so have stopped watching anything remote to those videos or images.
 
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Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,460
Everything about the transition from being, to not being is terrifying. To address the giant elephant thinking is not knowing. Nobody knows what lies beyond the grave. There are enough unaddressed breaks in reality to all thses are legitimate questions.
 
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hell toupee

Specialist
Sep 9, 2024
387
That's what I wish for.
However, it's too good to be true.

The process of dying scares me to no end. I've seen videos of people dying and the way their bodies go limp its uncanny.

N seems to be the only thing that could give a painless and peaceful death but it's nowhere to be found due to its lethality and its sole purpose.

I wish to just close my eyes and not wake up.
I don't want to be covered in sweat and vomit.
Don't want to feel like I need to throw my organs up.
Don't want to feel like my neck is getting crushed.
And I don't want my remains to be splattered all over some tracks.

Does anybody else feel like this or am I just being a whiny bitch who doesn't have the balls to go through the painful process?

Of course, we all hope for a peaceful passing, where we just close our eyes and transition from physical existence to the beyond. I believe that barbiturates are the closest we can get to that.

However, that said, if you do your homework, there are ways to transition that are just as peaceful. Ways that are easily available to most of us.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
944
Of course, we all hope for a peaceful passing, where we just close our eyes and transition from physical existence to the beyond. I believe that barbiturates are the closest we can get to that.

However, that said, if you do your homework, there are ways to transition that are just as peaceful. Ways that are easily available to most of us.
Just as peaceful as barbiturates? Do tell!
 
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InvasionOfPublicity

InvasionOfPublicity

I wasn't suppos'd to make it past 25
Jun 5, 2023
26
yea i feel you, so far i think fent overdose is the best way, but im still doing my research. i really just want to peacefully pass away as well.
 
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hell toupee

Specialist
Sep 9, 2024
387
Just as peaceful as barbiturates? Do tell!

Nitrous Oxide.

I dare say it's better than barbiturates because it actually makes the experience enjoyable.

It's slightly technical, but not nearly as technical as an exit bag and something like Nitrogen or Helium. No continuous flow/regulators/etc is required.

Do a search on the forums here. There is plenty of info about it. I think most people waive it off because it may require a technical setup like exit bags, but it doesn't.

This is my method. It's also the preferred method of dentists who decide to ctb.
 
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prompt_critical

On the banks of the Rubicon
Jan 11, 2026
13
This is probably the best way to CTB ever, you won't know anything but euphoria after the first breath, you won't even be capable of thought in my experience.
Nitrous Oxide.

I dare say it's better than barbiturates because it actually makes the experience enjoyable.

It's slightly technical, but not nearly as technical as an exit bag and something like Nitrogen or Helium. No continuous flow/regulators/etc is required.

Do a search on the forums here. There is plenty of info about it. I think most people waive it off because it may require a technical setup like exit bags, but it doesn't.

This is my method. It's also the preferred method of dentists who decide to ctb.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
944
@LonelyPrince I feel you, man. I just can't believe euthanasia isn't available. It seems so obvious now. The whole pro-life approach to suicide is crap. We are sacrificed so healthy people don't have to think about life going wrong.
This is probably the best way to CTB ever, you won't know anything but euphoria after the first breath, you won't even be capable of thought in my experience.
Can someone spoonfeed me how to do this?
 
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Always-in-trouble

Member
Jan 14, 2026
26
Nitrous Oxide.

I dare say it's better than barbiturates because it actually makes the experience enjoyable.

It's slightly technical, but not nearly as technical as an exit bag and something like Nitrogen or Helium. No continuous flow/regulators/etc is required.

Do a search on the forums here. There is plenty of info about it. I think most people waive it off because it may require a technical setup like exit bags, but it doesn't.

This is my method. It's also the preferred method of dentists who decide to ctb.
Make a megathread so it reaches more peeps.
 
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hell toupee

Specialist
Sep 9, 2024
387
Make a megathread so it reaches more peeps.

As much as I would like to help, I battle with providing information that a young and impulsive person could use. As we get older, we start to recognize that things that seemed so world ending at the time, actually turn out to be nothing.

I fully support everyone's decision to do with their life that they feel is best. However, I have seen so many threads of people saying something like "I need a quick way to ctb before my parents come home and find out I got bad grades" or something similar.

If you are serious about this, just do some searches on the forum for N2O. Particularly the user Intoxicated's posts. He provides a wealth of knowledge on the subject and he explains his method. You can also just search Google for N2O asphyxia.
 
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Always-in-trouble

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Jan 14, 2026
26
As much as I would like to help, I battle with providing information that a young and impulsive person could use. As we get older, we start to recognize that things that seemed so world ending at the time, actually turn out to be nothing.

I fully support everyone's decision to do with their life that they feel is best. However, I have seen so many threads of people saying something like "I need a quick way to ctb before my parents come home and find out I got bad grades" or something similar.

If you are serious about this, just do some searches on the forum for N2O. Particularly the user Intoxicated's posts. He provides a wealth of knowledge on the subject and he explains his method. You can also just search Google for N2O asphyxia.
I understand, thanks for the info.
 
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