Lo$t95
Hello Darkness my old Friend
- Jul 16, 2024
- 267
It is a really painful experience but by essentially trapping myself into CTB as a way of overpowering SI I have felt some confidence in my ability to follow through mentally.
No other options but to CTB…
for eg
running down financial resources
Tying up loose ends with self-hatred / insecurities / regrets / trauma
Distancing myself from work / (family for lack of a better word) / and friends.
Just quietly saying my goodbyes without raising suspicions or them realising what I am actually saying to them at the time.
Hope this makes sense. It's a difficult experience that feels surreal at times. I am still riddled with guilt but working on that.
Thanks for reading.
No other options but to CTB…
for eg
running down financial resources
Tying up loose ends with self-hatred / insecurities / regrets / trauma
Distancing myself from work / (family for lack of a better word) / and friends.
Just quietly saying my goodbyes without raising suspicions or them realising what I am actually saying to them at the time.
Hope this makes sense. It's a difficult experience that feels surreal at times. I am still riddled with guilt but working on that.
Thanks for reading.
