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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
667
I'm so scared that my SI won't allow me to do it....please can someone tell me if there's any other way. i live in the US I'm not super rich
...is there any other way tht isn't reversible? I also can't buy a gun.

I don't want to become paralyzed and I don't want to not die. I'm ctb'ing on Saturday night.
I might try hanging...I live with my parents and you get siblings tho and don't want to traumatize them....
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Member
Aug 31, 2025
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I once wanted to jump from an apartment block, there was an emergency ladder to the roof. I chickened out at the last moment, luckily nobody saw me and called the cops or something. I now have a different method and am convinced SI wont get me again. (somehow even more miserable now)
From what i know the key to jumping is doing it high enough, like 10+ stories. dont want to end up in the hospital with all your bones broken, good luck
 
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antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
20
Hi again MiMif.
Like Alice mentioned, if you want to ctb this way, make sure to jump high enough. There are stories of people surviving high jumps as well, so there's still risk.
If you do commit to this method, I would advise you NOT to do it sober: alcohol, benzos, and so on
Best of lucks to you, take care ♥
 
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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
667
I'm not o
Hi again MiMif.
Like Alice mentioned, if you want to ctb this way, make sure to jump high enough. There are stories of people surviving high jumps as well, so there's still risk.
If you do commit to this method, I would advise you NOT to do it sober: alcohol, benzos, and so on
Best of lucks to you, take care ♥
I'm not old enough to buy alcohol yet ...I have cigarettes but that's it
I once wanted to jump from an apartment block, there was an emergency ladder to the roof. I chickened out at the last moment, luckily nobody saw me and called the cops or something. I now have a different method and am convinced SI wont get me again. (somehow even more miserable now)
From what i know the key to jumping is doing it high enough, like 10+ stories. dont want to end up in the hospital with all your bones broken, good luck
Sorry but what's the method ur doing?
 
plzoffme

plzoffme

Student
Jun 30, 2025
102
I was in your shoes, I have a GUN but my SI is too strong to use that method. I am using a powerful substance like Fentanyl to go. SN works the same way, I just do not like the SN method because you might puke & it taste bad... I am sorry you feel stuck, I wish you peace
 
MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
667
partial hanging
I tried that so many times but keep failing
I was in your shoes, I have a GUN but my SI is too strong to use that method. I am using a powerful substance like Fentanyl to go. SN works the same way, I just do not like the SN method because you might puke & it taste bad... I am sorry you feel stuck, I wish you peace
How'd u get ur hands on fentanyl?
 
plzoffme

plzoffme

Student
Jun 30, 2025
102
I tried that so many times but keep failing

How'd u get ur hands on fentanyl?
Darkweb, I am actually taking Isotonitazene which is 10x stronger then fent but yea
 
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hellocana

Member
Aug 10, 2025
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I was. Unfortunately I fell back into psychosis and went back to the ward, and my family accessed my laptop and found my amazon order for the items for gas. I am now under heavy watch from them so I'm looking at more discreet options

Are you switching methods? You were doing nitrogen or helium before right?
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
103
I was. Unfortunately I fell back into psychosis and went back to the ward, and my family accessed my laptop and found my amazon order for the items for gas. I am now under heavy watch from them so I'm looking at more discreet options
Ugh I'm so sorry. I hope you find another way easily.
 
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