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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Just imagine an exotic beach…

Totally down in the dumps today, the heaviness, the darkness, the emptiness. And I know it's not just me, it's so many of us. How did we end up being so broken? Being born, small but whole, the world is supposed to be our playground to grow, learn, explore, become whoever, or whatever we want, and be happy, right?

Wrong. How did everything go so wrong? Do we even stand a chance? How did everything become so messed up? We try, we fight, we fall, we get up, we try again, and again. And for what? We fight this battle. Some days it's too much. What are we fighting? What are we fighting for? Why do we keep on fighting?

No answers needed, I'm just tired. To everyone who is tired, I feel you. The world has become heavy, and I understand if you feel the same. Days like today, I feel like saying one last cheers with a cocktail of Something Neat, to say goodbye world, I'm done. Imagine having such a cocktail, on a tropical beach, one last time.

Cheers🍹
 
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C

Coin

When will tomorrow be better?
Apr 6, 2023
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Very well-written. I don't even care for alcohol nor beaches but the picture you've painted feels strangely comforting. Thank you for your post. 🍹
 
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Lyn

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Mar 1, 2025
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Yeah, I feel this.
I'm just exhausted too from all the futile fighting.
And yet I'm still here doing something I don't want to deal with, going in circles, carrying on with life trying to keep the walls from caving in.
Not because I believe they'll hold.
Not because I even want them to hold.

You've got a way with words even in such moments. I appreciate you writing this post.
Cheers!
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Very well-written. I don't even care for alcohol nor beaches but the picture you've painted feels strangely comforting. Thank you for your post. 🍹
You are most welcome, glad it's somewhat comforting. For some reason I'm drawn to the idea of a beach lifestyle these days. Something about the sea views, beach walks, and fresh air away from cities. I'll be moving to a coastal town soon, and it may just help to postpone having the special cocktail. Maybe I'll have coconut drink instead and say a cheers anyways as I think of you guys.
Yeah, I feel this.
I'm just exhausted too from all the futile fighting.
And yet I'm still here doing something I don't want to deal with, going in circles, carrying on with life trying to keep the walls from caving in.
Not because I believe they'll hold.
Not because I even want them to hold.

You've got a way with words even in such moments. I appreciate you writing this post.
Cheers!
Exactly that, going in circles. It's comforting to know we are not alone in feeling this way, thanks for being here too. Cheers!
 
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divinemistress87

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Jan 1, 2024
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Mmm Pina Colada on the beach
 
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NoHalfMeasures

You either run from things, or you face them
Aug 20, 2024
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Beautifully written. I'm sorry you're going through so much pain. A beach sounds like a relaxing place to have that final drink. Hearing the droning ocean waves, feeling the gentle breeze and warmth of the sun.
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Beautifully written. I'm sorry you're going through so much pain. A beach sounds like a relaxing place to have that final drink. Hearing the droning ocean waves, feeling the gentle breeze and warmth of the sun.
Thank you, I don't think I'm in any more pain than anyone else here though. I was thinking, if there was such a bar, how many of us would go there, and do a final cheers together? Not saying we should! It just seemed like a good idea for me at the time, and the perfect place as you describe. I'd imagine if all of us ended up on such a beach away from the real world, we may just end up having a good time, with some decent conversation going around.
 
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