fleetingnight
incapable of shutting up
- May 2, 2024
- 607
One of the worst parts about being suicidal is the stupid decisions you make when you're hoping to die soon. "I'll be dead in a few months, so I don't have to worry about the consequences of these decisions." Then, a few months pass by, and whatever happened (changed your mind/changed methods/failed/something stopped you/etc.) you're still alive and you have to find a way to deal with it. I've done it multiple times, but still don't learn my lesson. For me, usually it's neglecting my work/housework/classes/etc., but I've done other self destructive things, while thinking I wouldn't be alive for whatever consequence it had on my body.