I've just made of all the good (major, feasible) things that could happen in my life, and all the bad, and put in my estimated likelihood of those things happening. If you (those of you planning on cbt) made a similar list, do you reckon it would be 100% bad, 0% good? If not, what do you do with >0% if not call that hope?
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,158
BluesRunTheGame
Blackpilled
- Dec 15, 2020
- 1,715
In my experience mental illness is a merry-go-round: one issue gets (at least temporarily) taken care of but then the next issue takes its place. Hope happens in these in-between bits and I at least fall for it every time.
Capsaicin78
Full time failure
- May 4, 2022
- 238
My "inner battery" is empty in that regard. I don't wanna fight anymore, I know i'm never gonna be happy in this life.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,118
I think I've given my life a more than fair chance of showing me some kind of good could come of it, or come into it, for me. I can't even remember the last time I had any real joy. It was way more than 30 years ago. How long should someone have to wait? There isn't anything good on the horizon for me. Just getting older, getting health issues, continuing to be miserable, and lonely, What is the point? I did a virtual "balance" test, and I couldn't come up with even one thing to put on the "reason to stay" side of the scale, and had, at least, 7 solid reasons, and maybe 10 or 11 total, reasons to cash out of this life I have, as soon as possible. I'm already counting down to it. Or, counting up, depending on how you look at it.
I will neber be happy. It doesnt matter how many years more I live. Everyday is torture and I just want to exit.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,006
To me, there is nothing good or positive about being alive. My life is only misery and suffering and in the future things will likely get much worse. There is no hope, everything is very hopeless. I want nothing to do with this horrible, pointless life. I wish that I never existed at all and I envy those who are gone.
