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eashanm

God
Feb 22, 2023
512
I feel pretty Contented today. I feel that if I had other things ready, I'd do CTB today only.

So, my feelings for suicide are a 10/10
 
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drownll

drownll

Student
Jul 7, 2023
136
8
It really depends, half of the days i'm like 5, the other half i'm 8 and rarely i'm 10.
During those 10 days it feels like i'm in hell, and if i could have a reliable ctb method on hand i'd do it immediately.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
i feel not to bad today a little discomfort tho my thoughts of dying is strong but not to frequent i'd rate it 2 out of 10 but if i had N i would drink it right now
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,247
afaik there is a thread about this topic already:

 
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QueerMelancholy

QueerMelancholy

Mage
Jul 29, 2023
531
Currently a 7, but if I had a reliable way to CTB I'd be a 12.
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

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Jul 10, 2023
2,191
I feel pretty Contented today. I feel that if I had other things ready, I'd do CTB today only.

So, my feelings for suicide are a 10/10
Probably an 8/10 or 9/10. The first thought of the day for me is ctb and it stays with me for the rest of the day until i fall asleep. Its a never ending cycle. Also, my suicidal feelings are higher at the moment because i'm self sabotaging myself by being on SaSu. 😂
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,290
I'm not sure if the thread is measuring how desperate one is to die or how frequently they are thinking of suicide, but if it's the second then likely 10, at least that way to me as I'm always wishing for eternal sleep. I don't really see existing as being desirable at all, it's futile, tiring and burdensome, I dread to think of what lies ahead.
 
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shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
189
2 and I think at a max it's ever at 5.. that's my only worry about ctb maybe I will just not be motivated enough to do it when the time comes.
I've just made the logical decision to end my life, but all of the feelings and emotions aren't following through.
 
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BGooG

Member
Aug 26, 2022
88
10. Todays a bad day for many reasons. First time I've been on this site in months.
 
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letmegetout

‘People can be dead before they’ve even died’
Jan 23, 2023
149
TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
475
10, sliding to a 8 in the evening, back to 10 at night
 
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𖣂𖣂𖣂.

𖣂𖣂𖣂.

𖣂
May 26, 2023
165
As for today 8-9. But most of the time 7. I'm scared to do it myself. But if someone did it to me I feel like I would accept it.
 
MusicGuy

MusicGuy

We're just another statistic
May 28, 2023
118
Right now somewhere in a 5-7, as for today it varied widely between 2 and 9, no specific reason
 
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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
10 i feel i can't do it anymore at living
 
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funeralcat

funeralcat

Member
Mar 17, 2023
68
7 Maybe? I feel like my life lacks purpose and I fail at everything miserably
 
アホペンギン

アホペンギン

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Jul 10, 2023
2,191
Found this thread again so i'll comment again, currently my suicidal feelings are a 9. My SN will arrive very soon and I'm looking forward to finally being relieved from this dreadful existence.
 
Henryk

Henryk

Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry
Apr 22, 2022
90
10, I lived the worst possible weekend and now I want to kill myself at all costs
 
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Majestatea Masiva

Member
Feb 4, 2023
49
I consider 10 actualyl having killed myself, so Im at a 9 level of "god i hate this, why cant I die?". Real evil has love for a face
 
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aGoodDayToDie

Arcanist
Jun 30, 2023
459
2. I wouldn't mind being gone but I'm not thinking about suicide really
 

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