On a scale of 1-10 how much do you hate yourself?

[y'ffre]

2, my problems (mental illnesses) have nothing to do with me

 

[niiina]

10000

 

[TheLastK]

8-9, depending. used to be maybe 3 for a while, but confidence was shattered.

 

[rationaltake]

A zillion

 

[jodes2]

5. I'm not to blame for everything but I am a useless piece of shit

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

Ad infinitum.

 

[Nanako]

4

 

[anxious_depressive]

10

 

[StarlightDreamer]

I'd reckon 4-5, with spikes to seven. For me, self-hatred is a constant undercurrent in my life. It ebbs and flows depending on the day, but never really goes away.

 

[FrozenMango]

6-7

 

[BRAINWORMS]

A solid 8. My mistakes haunt me every waking moment, but I'm also trying my hardest to make life easier for others.

 

[Dying2DieDamnSI]

While I have many regrets and feelings of guilt, I can't really hate who I am. I treat all living things as I want to be treated, have loads of empathy, don't contribute to animal cruelty by being vegan, never brought children into this horrible world, and believe that all humans should have the right to a peaceful and painless death. I hate that I'm moody and lash out at my best friend, but it's because of my own suffering, and I always apologise.

When I'm super depressed, it can be way up around an 8. Depression and self-loathing go hand in hand.

Sending love to all fellow sufferers

 

[Ashu]

Nine, since there must be at least a one keeping me alive.

 

[Apathetic]

6, I don't hate myself all that much, just hate a lot of the decisions I've made in the past that have caused me to end up in my current situation.

 

[PArazi]

0, I have many regrets but I do not hate myself. I am just not made for this world.

same

 

[LateDecember]

Solid 9. I'm occasionally useful but not enough to offset everything else about me

 

[Himalayan]

4

 

[ApartmentSui]

9.4

 

[jessisme]

Zero. I hate the situation that I am in and the way that the world works and treats me. I love myself and want more for myself but I will never be able to have that and things will only get infinitely worse for me as time passes. It's a very sad thing.

 

[WhenTheyCry]

7

 

[MentalStefan]

10/10

 

[leeloosnow]

Lots of relatable replies here. I think that my own self hatred fluctuates as many others said. There are days I find everything about myself and my life so revolting that I wanna crawl out of my skin, those days I typically get as high as possible asap. The past couple months I'm reminded I'm occasionally useful to others and not complete trash, but I still wanna ctb when I'm no longer obligated to others, not too far in the future I think. My best friend is a therapist, I've known her since 4th grade, we used to get high together and found recovery separately. She's incredibly loving and brilliant, I respect and value what she says, but we'll sit on facetime and tell each other that "you were always the pretty one", "you do so much for others" or other random compliments, now we laugh at our misfortune about not being able to internalize any of those kind words to each other. Really cruel of life, to give bread with one hand only to smack it away with the other. The most poignant memory of self worth are the days preceding my recently aborted attempt, I realized that if I only had a couple days left and I wanted that time for myself, not waiting for stupid assholes and their stupid manipulation. That felt really good. I try to replicate it without having the ctb date, but I can't do it like that. There are things about myself I'll never forgive me for. There are things others condemn me for that I love about myself. Brings to mind that saying... "don't take insults from people you wouldn't take advice from", which is very true, but another skill I'll never adapt, unfortunately. fwiw I find value in what y'all said here, and more about you too, even from what little I know of other members.

 

[assisted]

1,000,000

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

7

 

[BrokenJesus]

6? I kinda like myself, but I understand why people in general don't and am very self conscious about it

 

[WorthlessTrash]

10. I am a dysphoric male. if I was an attractive cis female, it'd be a 0.

 

[TraurigerClown]

At the beginning of 2022 i would´ve answered it with a steady 4-6.
Now after failing again and again like all the years before im back at 10!
Its fluctuating but most of the Time, like 97% im a steady 8-10

 

[lachrymost]

2. Life's the problem, not me. I'm awesome.

 

[Agon123]

sometimes 1, sometimes 10.
There is nothing in between

 

[StolenLife]

5. I hate myself to a degree but I hate the world much more.