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akira.kewl

akira.kewl

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Dec 4, 2025
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I don't have the money for SN, and my blades that I was gonna slit my wrists with are extremely dull, and I'm too pussy to hang myself, so I'm really having to get creative here...

• Propranolol IR : the goal is 5g (5000mg), a little more than double the lethal dose : the main course, to lower my heart rate as low as possible
• Olmesartan-hctz : no specific dose, as much as I can collect, but each pill is 40mg-12.5mg : to lower my blood pressure even further
• Buproprion XL : no specific dose, but each pill is 150mg : to increase the absorption of the propranolol (yes, that's an actual thing)
• Ondansetron : 24 mg or so (might need more) : to stop myself from throwing it all up, or at least buy time
• Benadryl : 125 mg : to make it easier to pass out and sedate myself to reduce SI
• Lorazepam : 0.5 mg, but hopefully I can get more : to reduce SI further

The idea is that, compared to other overdoses, it wouldn't be too painful. I've dealt with low blood pressure before so it's not like I'm not used to it, but that doesn't mean it'd necessarily be peaceful. I'm just hoping that the feeling of my body failing would come after losing consciousness, since there wouldn't be much blood flow to my brain. I just wanna go to sleep feeling sick and cold and not wake up. It's not perfect and it might fail and hurt really bad but this is the best I can do man, if I opt for my stimulants it's gonna be much worse.

It seems extremely difficult to swallow hundreds of pills like that, but luckily propranolol is very small. I'm meant to take two a day, so I'm just gonna take one a day and set aside the other so I can stockpile without dealing with a rebound effect in the meantime. It's gonna be pretty obvious if I'm suddenly tachycardic all the time. I hope it won't take too long to get enough, but it probably will since I'm given a three month supply. I'd stockpile the buproprion and olmesartan too but they're not mine, so I only plan to take half the bottle to leave enough for the person. If I sneak more than one every now and then, it'll become very obvious.

What do we think of this cocktail? Not taking them all at once and this isn't in the exact order, since some take longer to kick in. I'm also not doing it right now since I need to collect more first, and knowing me I'll probably chicken out again anyway. But I want to hear your thoughts! Any more ideas to lower blood pressure?