Venting nothing burger vent

[ScaredCutter]

god, i have to wait a month or more to see a clinical psychologist but, over the time my mum was able to contact one and get confirmation i feel like my feelings have just disappeared out of nowhere. i still have emotions and reactions but, it feels like it faded. ive been just silently dealing with it but idk why it happened. i tried summarising things that feel important to bring up in a book just incase but, because it feels like those feelings just disappered that maybe i was faking it? i can never tell what faking it is to me because ill be worried that maybe its all stupid and i dont have this or that despite having a real diagonsis.

am i suppresing things because of being anxious about a clinical psychologist? im just worried that when it comes around, i wont be able to say anything because i usually cant until i feel like i can but idk why i stopped feeling that ways ive felt...

ive noticed that so slowly, so fuxking slowly that its coming all back but once i remember that ill eventually see a clinical psychologist it just DISAPPERS, what the fuck. :(

it makes me feel so sad and confused because i dont even understand why its happening. i want to be done with it all, im feeling insecure and jealous from my boyfriend friend today anyways thats how i know its coming back slowly.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

You sound like you're experiencing depersonalization, a type of dissociation—which is a criteria for BPD, actually.


Section from the DSM-5-TR, criteria highlighted in blue.

Just make sure you tell the psycholost that this reaction came on after a lot of stress, and they should put two and two together if they're any good at their job.

 

[ScaredCutter]

You sound like you're experiencing depersonalization, a type of dissociation—which is a criteria for BPD, actually.

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Section from the DSM-5-TR, criteria highlighted in blue.

Just make sure you tell the psycholost that this reaction came on after a lot of stress, and they should put two and two together if they're any good at their job.

i see, thank you a lot! i appreciate it! ill make sure to tell her that!