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SighCry

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May 15, 2026
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I don't know how to explain it but I just know I'm not supposed to ever age beyond my 30s. Like, I am simply not meant to be a 40 year old, 50 year old, 60 year old... I'm not supposed to do any of the things that people expect us to do (marriage, kids etc). I'm not supposed to be here for when my parents die. I'm not supposed to have real adult like responsibilities and problems. I may be young but I have lived a very fulfilled life up until now. I do not have anything else that I want to achieve.
 
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Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
521
Yeah I've felt similarly and thoughts like this have been more intense than ever lately. I'm nearly 30 and I'm surprised I've lived as long as I have. I'd be genuinely shocked if I was still alive to see myself turn 40...
 
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CarbonBased

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Jun 18, 2026
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I'm also young, but I have heard many stories from people who thought this way and then actually did turn 30, 40, and so on. I can relate to not wanting to achieve anything, though. Unlike many people on this website, I don't consider myself a loser or a failure. I think I could achieve whatever I want (within reason), but I just really see no point. I struggle to imagine a life that is worth living
 
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Bishop

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People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
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I'm also young, but I have heard many stories from people who thought this way and then actually did turn 30, 40, and so on. I can relate to not wanting to achieve anything, though. Unlike many people on this website, I don't consider myself a loser or a failure. I think I could achieve whatever I want (within reason), but I just really see no point. I struggle to imagine a life that is worth living
Same here
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
601
I feel similarly. I genuinely can't see myself becoming 30 years old. I see myself dying in my twenties. Tbh I'm shocked I even made it to my twenties.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
330
Whats so bad about 30? Just another number
All of those things you mentioned are societys expectations, i say fuck em
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
467
30s are young. Hopefully you will change perspective.
 
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somethingisntreal

Live, Laugh, Larp
Aug 30, 2025
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I cant imagine myself going beyond 30 either. If i somehow live until then its gonna be really tragic. I've pushed my deadline to age 30 now. I got to do it before i hit my 30s at any cost.
 
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