Discussion Not depressed but suicidal?

[blacksilence]

Anyone else here not depressed but still suicidal? Don't get me wrong, I've gone through depression stages but I just can't deal with my life and there is no way to change things and I'm just ready to ctb.

 

[Sanguinius]

look up "rational suicide" maybe you recognize yourself.

I suffer definitly from depression, but depression was result from suicidality. I wanted to live so bad, but I saw no other options than to ctb for philosophical/idealistical reasons, and that made me badly depressive.
Now I'm less idealistic and stuff, so I think without the depression I could live more or less happily, but the depression won't go away anymore no matter which therapies and stuff I try, and for sure I don't want to live like it is now, so I'm suicidal because of depression.
lol.
shit happens.

 

[Soul]

I don't feel depressed, and I hesitate to call myself suicidal because it so strongly connotes depression. I know I'll commit suicide, mainly because of my personal convictions.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Anyone else here not depressed but still suicidal? Don't get me wrong, I've gone through depression stages but I just can't deal with my life and there is no way to change things and I'm just ready to ctb.

I used to have depression from around the end of 13 to 20½. After that my depression went away but I have been suicidal since 14 and I am now 25 and don´t see myself as depressed anymore and I want to die mainly because of physical problems.

But some say I am depressed since I don´t feel happy anymore but I don´t feel anything not happiness, sadness, excitement I am just apathetic but maybe this is another form of depression? I just don´t see this as depression because as a teenager I would cry so many times each day and truly FEEL so emotionally sad and depressed I don´t feel anything anymore.

 

[Maksimka Ai]

even when I smile and I have a good mood, the desire for suicide does not leave me .. I broke

 

[MAC10]

Oh I'm severely depressed, it's dangerously clear. I score the highest on all depression tests and show every symptom in the book.

 

[RedSalvation15]

I was diagnosed with depression, but I believe that's complete bullshit. Yes, I had those very, VERY dark moods and yes, I'm thinking about ending it every day (more like fantasizing about it), but still... depression is a whole different thing. I believe it's far worse than what I have.
Personally I just hate life. Getting up from bed, going to work, get home, going to bed, getting up from bed, going to work, wait until the weekend has passed by, just to begin everything from a new one.
Of course, there are things I would love to experience in life, but no matter what... I just can't get it right.

So, what causes me to think about suicide? Just the feeling of being a fuckup and not seeing any sense in life (or the point of getting up from bed).

 

[BridgeJumper]

Well technically my diagnosis is manic depression so yea Im depressed
but
Right now Im tying rope to my doorknob and Im not even sad? I literally feel normal? Ive just been singing and went out to town an hour before. Im just so used to wanting to die

 

[Vegrau]

We dont need to feel depress for desiring death. Any reasons is valid.

 

[Weems]

even when I smile and I have a good mood, the desire for suicide does not leave me .. I broke

That's what it is. You can just give up, stop believing in yourself. Once that's happened, you're through

 

[Orin]

Same here.

I haven't experienced any extreme form of depression in years but suicide is on my mind merely as a contingency plan... an exit strategy to avoid a slow, painful death via starvation and hypothermia.