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egyptian_baddie

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Not sure how are you ex Muslim if you still believe in god but there is a Hadith about that if you only believe in god you won't be in eternal hell
ุฑูˆุงู‡ ู…ุณู„ู… ููŠ ุตุญูŠุญู‡ (135) ุนูŽู†ู’ ุฌูŽุงุจูุฑู ุฑุถูŠ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ุนู†ู‡ ู‚ูŽุงู„ูŽ : ุฃูŽุชูŽู‰ ุงู„ู†ู‘ูŽุจููŠู‘ูŽ ุตูŽู„ู‘ูŽู‰ ุงู„ู„ู‘ูŽู‡ู ุนูŽู„ูŽูŠู’ู‡ู ูˆูŽุณูŽู„ู‘ูŽู…ูŽ ุฑูŽุฌูู„ูŒ ุŒ ููŽู‚ูŽุงู„ูŽ ูŠูŽุง ุฑูŽุณููˆู„ูŽ ุงู„ู„ู‘ูŽู‡ู : ู…ูŽุง ุงู„ู’ู…ููˆุฌูุจูŽุชูŽุงู†ู ุŸ

ููŽู‚ูŽุงู„ูŽ : ( ู…ูŽู†ู’ ู…ูŽุงุชูŽ ู„ูŽุง ูŠูุดู’ุฑููƒู ุจูุงู„ู„ู‘ูŽู‡ู ุดูŽูŠู’ุฆู‹ุง ุฏูŽุฎูŽู„ูŽ ุงู„ู’ุฌูŽู†ู‘ูŽุฉูŽ ุŒ ูˆูŽู…ูŽู†ู’ ู…ูŽุงุชูŽ ูŠูุดู’ุฑููƒู ุจูุงู„ู„ู‘ูŽู‡ู ุดูŽูŠู’ุฆู‹ุง ุฏูŽุฎูŽู„ูŽ ุงู„ู†ู‘ูŽุงุฑูŽ) .

ู‚ุงู„ ุงู„ู†ูˆูˆูŠ ุฑุญู…ู‡ ุงู„ู„ู‡ : " ูŽุฃูŽู…ู‘ูŽุง ู‚ูŽูˆู’ู„ู‡ ( ู…ูŽุง ุงู„ู’ู…ููˆุฌูุจูŽุชูŽุงู†ู ุŸ ) ููŽู…ูŽุนู’ู†ูŽุงู‡ู ุงู„ู’ุฎูŽุตู’ู„ูŽุฉ ุงู„ู’ู…ููˆุฌูุจูŽุฉ ู„ูู„ู’ุฌูŽู†ู‘ูŽุฉู , ูˆูŽุงู„ู’ุฎูŽุตู’ู„ูŽุฉ ุงู„ู’ู…ููˆุฌูุจูŽุฉ ู„ูู„ู†ู‘ูŽุงุฑู "
(Make sure to try to pray tho)
So even if you sin you might be punished for them but not forever and God is very forgiving as you said, no one is perfect just trying to be better is enough even if you couldn't
Aside from that you are an ex Muslim, I relate with your situation, I also have a trauma from a book i read when i was a child about ุนู„ุงู…ุงุช ุงู„ุณุงุนู‡ , and I'm suicidal , SH and use drugs+ My nationality is also Egyptian, even though I have never lived there but my parents did
i really love god , islam is very dear to me even if i was full of flaws, and that will never change
No one is flawless and you shouldn't give up just because you sin.

They are supposed to pray for you as long as you remain a Muslim and pray, Suicide is a sin but you are still a Muslim ?? I didn't know they do that iam sorry about that they are like this.

Side note but ูุนู† ุนุจุฏ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ุจู† ู…ุณุนูˆุฏ ุนู† ุงู„ู†ุจูŠ ุตู„ู‰ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ุนู„ูŠู‡ ูˆุณู„ู… ู‚ุงู„: ุณูˆุฑุฉ ุชุจุงุฑูƒ ู‡ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุงู†ุนุฉ ู…ู† ุนุฐุงุจ ุงู„ู‚ุจุฑ ุฑูˆุงู‡ ุฃุจูˆ ุงู„ุดูŠุฎ
If you read Surah Al-Mulk daily, you really don't need to worry.
Thank you for sharing the hadiths, the fact that you still care about god, still worry about sinning even at a time of crisis,says a lot about your heart, even if you feel like you're full of flaws. we are full of flaws , we all are human beings at the end and islam says that human are born sinners.religious communities don't always know how to deal with people who are struggling mentally, instead of compassion they respond with judgment, which just makes things worse. I hope things get a little lighter for you eventually, you deserve some peace, even if the road to it is imperfect. You can dm me anytime btw
oh :3 i like this..

so basically.. i got doxxed and >_< its pretty impossible to live past..
and also the people who doxxed me/are bullying me/are on my case are trying to make me feel crazy too..
so i've lowkey lost my mind and lost touch with reality..
sooooo when i kill myself, soon, with SN, i won't burn in hell for eternity becus.. i am not of sound mind, so i won't be held accountable for my suicide ๐Ÿฅ€

but yeah if i had my sanity, i probably wouldn't be killing myself soon. because i don't think burning in hell for eternity, killing myself the same way over and over forever, is worth it. in that case, just be patient: you will die. it is inevitable
First of all, i am so sorry you have to go through all of this. Please ignore all the bad replies, i kinda believe that if a young person feel suicidal then they might not be in their right mind because we are going against the survival instincts instilled on our brains for generations
 
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