SterileMoth
Who knows man
- Jul 9, 2020
- 74
I haven't posted on here in almost 5 months. I actually almost forgot about it, I mean it lingered enough in mind but not heavily, not ... not heavily.
But the past week or so they've been crawling back into my mind. I tried to ignore it and deny it and be happy but I'm not, I'm thinking about dying again. I don't want to be here, I feel stuck. I know it's stupid, look at everyone in worse situations thriving n shit. I'm a piss baby. I'd be better off a brief stain on the world anyway.
I think ... I am terribly tempted to OD now if I am honest. I'm at my partner's new place, with their new roommates, because they invited me to stay the night. I'd ruin it. I already ruin everything, so yanno ... It's like, one final fuck up? Not that big of a deal right.
Whatever.
It's fine.
I'm fine :)
I am so tired of dealing with this fucking brain.
Why can't I just be fucking normal why can't I just be FUCKING NORMAL.
But the past week or so they've been crawling back into my mind. I tried to ignore it and deny it and be happy but I'm not, I'm thinking about dying again. I don't want to be here, I feel stuck. I know it's stupid, look at everyone in worse situations thriving n shit. I'm a piss baby. I'd be better off a brief stain on the world anyway.
I think ... I am terribly tempted to OD now if I am honest. I'm at my partner's new place, with their new roommates, because they invited me to stay the night. I'd ruin it. I already ruin everything, so yanno ... It's like, one final fuck up? Not that big of a deal right.
Whatever.
It's fine.
I'm fine :)
I am so tired of dealing with this fucking brain.
Why can't I just be fucking normal why can't I just be FUCKING NORMAL.