From A, two months ago.
I am going to try doing three mixed parts. 9 grms are 150 ml, I guess in three fast times..........
The truth is that I have to do a try at least............after that....We'll see.
I am going to try doing three mixed parts. 9 grms are 150 ml, I guess in three fast times..........
The truth is that I have to do a try at least............after that....We'll see.
thrwaway99
Student
- Mar 24, 2019
- 144
ALittleBurden
Tens of personalities wearing one trench coat
- Aug 19, 2019
- 105
That's definitely the case for me. It's been a week since I failed my attempt and was found by family. I finally feel that ctb isn't something out of my reach, and that I could eventually achieve it if I tried again, and again, without panic. But the fear of being found one more time is absolutely cruel and petrifying.
Panic, that is another problem......It is hard to cope panic when you are totally sure of dying. just thinking about it make me sick.
Time is not a big problem using enough amount of pentobarbitol....it is too much reliable, that's the problem.
that_guy2611
Student
- Mar 17, 2018
- 187
Yup, I'm really not worried about dying or death. It's the goddamn chance of waking up and having an even shittier life with the added bonus of mental and physical damage from the attempt.
Astral316
Specialist
- Aug 26, 2019
- 332
I'm a little hesitant to hang myself for fear of being found and saved as a vegetable but than I think... shit, being a vegetable isn't all that bad. You get to lay in bed all day and are catered to by nurses. Vegetables are never depressed, they're just "blank." Who knows, maybe their connection to life is so damaged that their spirit is able to roam the astral plane... sorta like a lights are on but the home owner is out in the backyard playing, kinda thing.
Yea, my life is that bad that being a vegetable would be a step up.
Yea, my life is that bad that being a vegetable would be a step up.
