Venting nonsense

[BecomingTired]

i don't understand why im not even allowed to enjoy even a bit of happiness, it's as though a god is genuinely playing around with me to see how long it'll take for me to completely end my own misery; i really have no-one, genuinely no-one. i dont think i can trust people anymore, there has never been a point in time where anyone genuinely cared about me outside of my brother, and he's dead. i haven't slept at all, I spent all my time crying while reading a novel but it's just not distracting me anymore. my brain is so fuzzy after all vomiting recently, i dont even know anymore.

its so ironic, I would tell ppl to vent to help comfort them in any way but I hardly am able to without an utter breakdown like right now, maybe i never really trusted anyone in the first place. i give up wanting friends its so pointless im just going to spend my remaining days alone, i utterly disappoint everyone around me and just get left behind over and over again i genuinely give up its so fucking pointless i cant anymore fucking hate life its so garbage in every way possible it's a fucking joke i dont care anymore everyonne sccks so bad i hate myself for constantly failing to die i just need to jump instead i havent slept in so long

 

[cazza82]

i don't understand why im not even allowed to enjoy even a bit of happiness, it's as though a god is genuinely playing around with me to see how long it'll take for me to completely end my own misery; i really have no-one, genuinely no-one. i dont think i can trust people anymore, there has never been a point in time where anyone genuinely cared about me outside of my brother, and he's dead. i haven't slept at all, I spent all my time crying while reading a novel but it's just not distracting me anymore. my brain is so fuzzy after all vomiting recently, i dont even know anymore.

its so ironic, I would tell ppl to vent to help comfort them in any way but I hardly am able to without an utter breakdown like right now, maybe i never really trusted anyone in the first place. i give up wanting friends its so pointless im just going to spend my remaining days alone, i utterly disappoint everyone around me and just get left behind over and over again i genuinely give up its so fucking pointless i cant anymore fucking hate life its so garbage in every way possible it's a fucking joke i dont care anymore everyonne sccks so bad i hate myself for constantly failing to die i just need to jump instead

I'm here I know we don't know each other but I care we're all struggling bad I'm a message away if you need to talk

 

[BecomingTired]

I'm here I know we don't know each other but I care we're all struggling bad I'm a message away if you need to talk

thnk youu for the response, i appreciate it but i dnt really want to talk to ppl privately rn

 

[cazza82]

thnk youu for the response, i appreciate it but i dnt really want to talk to ppl privately rn

I totally understand but remember you can if you ever want to