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Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
- Dec 10, 2025
- 278
Even if I were to take my own life this year, it would mean I've endured years of pointless suffering, and all because I'm trapped in this country. But if I'd never existed in the first place, not only would those around me be unaffected, but I myself wouldn't have had to endure years of torment.
I've wasted so many years of my. I don't like hearing people say, 'You just need to find a job and accept that reality ' I've done the maths: in the place I've moved to now, an ordinary job with 2–4 days off a month pays around 460 dollars. Even at local prices, that's barely enough to get by; once living costs are deducted, there's simply no way I could save enough to leave this country.
The moment I was born into this country and this social class, I knew I'd never be able to leave. I hate it here. I hate a life without freedom, I hate the unattractive streets, I hate the stifling heat, and I hate having to use a VPN just to access any app – it's so slow and ruins the experience. That's why I can't even watch TikTok or YouTube properly or comfortably, and I rarely use international apps. I've always wanted to experience a good life before I die, I feel as though I haven't even begun to live a real life; there have only been years of restrictions and torment.
I've wasted so many years of my. I don't like hearing people say, 'You just need to find a job and accept that reality ' I've done the maths: in the place I've moved to now, an ordinary job with 2–4 days off a month pays around 460 dollars. Even at local prices, that's barely enough to get by; once living costs are deducted, there's simply no way I could save enough to leave this country.
The moment I was born into this country and this social class, I knew I'd never be able to leave. I hate it here. I hate a life without freedom, I hate the unattractive streets, I hate the stifling heat, and I hate having to use a VPN just to access any app – it's so slow and ruins the experience. That's why I can't even watch TikTok or YouTube properly or comfortably, and I rarely use international apps. I've always wanted to experience a good life before I die, I feel as though I haven't even begun to live a real life; there have only been years of restrictions and torment.
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