Venting nobody cares now and nobody cares after death

[BerdyDery]

last year one of my closest friends ctb and everyone around me that was also friends with him all seemed to have moved on and doesnt care within a week or two of his passing. everyone can push the notion that they care and that they dont want you to die but not a single person i know has actually put in the effort in preventing it. the few people that ive trusted and talked to about my mental health and my will to die have expressed their empathy in that moment, but it seems like they dont truly care until you actually die and even then it's only a temporary shock for them. maybe im just selfish and a hypocrite, but I really wish somebody would genuinely care about me on a deeper level where someone would actually ask how i am, but i dont think i can ever be loved like that.

 

[here_for_now]

Your not alone, sometimes i get foolish thoughts thinking maybe if a find a soulmate she can love me back to health and wanting to live again, but then i remember its not a Disney movie and just stop daydreaming of something that if it didnt happen in the 20 miserable years of my life, its likely to stay that way.

I hope you find what your looking for

 

[Front Back]

I really wish somebody would genuinely care

We all hope there is, but reality is a bit of a cruel place to be in. No one does care until it's late because their 'morality' only for dead and fetuses.