sleepforever81
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- Aug 23, 2021
- 80
Everyday the blackness is getting closer, everyone is out to get me, waiting for one slip up, or a moment of weakest they strike straight into my heart, knowing for well it will lead me onto a path off self destruction.
I have BPD all because I was sexually abused by a teacher in primary school.
I tried multiple times to end my life, but it has never worked out, part of me doesn't want to die, but the other part wants to die, it's a never ending battle. Everyone I come across in life might seem nice to begin with, but it always ends with them trying to screw me over.
Iv really tried everything in life but really want the pain to stop.
I went 5 days without drinking amy fluids but in the end I gave up as the pain and thirst was too much.
The soya sauce seems a viable method especially if I drink at least a litre. Taking endless overdoses of painkillers does not work, all it does is to make you really sick.
I have BPD all because I was sexually abused by a teacher in primary school.
I tried multiple times to end my life, but it has never worked out, part of me doesn't want to die, but the other part wants to die, it's a never ending battle. Everyone I come across in life might seem nice to begin with, but it always ends with them trying to screw me over.
Iv really tried everything in life but really want the pain to stop.
I went 5 days without drinking amy fluids but in the end I gave up as the pain and thirst was too much.
The soya sauce seems a viable method especially if I drink at least a litre. Taking endless overdoses of painkillers does not work, all it does is to make you really sick.
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