It's like everytime I try to get better doing different things and things that could bring benefit, everything turns out terrible to me. Am I wondering if I'm really cut out for this life.
I'm 29M, i'm from mexico. I just got back to college and I'm having a really hard time financially, sometimes i'm on zeros nothing to eat etc, and have to beg friends and family for some money, I made some money doing homework for other people and the bank took everything out of me because I hadn't used my card in a while, I got a job as a cook on weekends with a crappy salary and I never heard again from my boss just beacuse my first day of training did some errors, a friend offered me a job managing the social media of his airbnbs and then just forgot about it and acted like it never happened. I'm resenting him too much, i want to say some mean things to him even thought he's my only friend in this new place but I fucking hate him rn. I don't get why people act like that to me, they know i'm struggling so bad and still add more bullshit to my life. I'm so really tired of this crappy life, finances are one of the main reasons i want to CTB really, maybe pathetic but i'd rather die than keep living a life that doesn't even matter to me. I don't see my place in a world that works like this, i'm completely lost, terribly lost and my only options is to run a job in the service industry and feel more miserable. Any job I have ever had in the service industry makes want to kill myself after one month, that's the reason why I decided to go back to school because I want a different job with better pay and benefits but it's really hard when you are broke af. Plus the job market is bullshit I won't even have a job secured if I graduated. I HATE THIS LIFE, I HATE IT.
I'm 29M, i'm from mexico. I just got back to college and I'm having a really hard time financially, sometimes i'm on zeros nothing to eat etc, and have to beg friends and family for some money, I made some money doing homework for other people and the bank took everything out of me because I hadn't used my card in a while, I got a job as a cook on weekends with a crappy salary and I never heard again from my boss just beacuse my first day of training did some errors, a friend offered me a job managing the social media of his airbnbs and then just forgot about it and acted like it never happened. I'm resenting him too much, i want to say some mean things to him even thought he's my only friend in this new place but I fucking hate him rn. I don't get why people act like that to me, they know i'm struggling so bad and still add more bullshit to my life. I'm so really tired of this crappy life, finances are one of the main reasons i want to CTB really, maybe pathetic but i'd rather die than keep living a life that doesn't even matter to me. I don't see my place in a world that works like this, i'm completely lost, terribly lost and my only options is to run a job in the service industry and feel more miserable. Any job I have ever had in the service industry makes want to kill myself after one month, that's the reason why I decided to go back to school because I want a different job with better pay and benefits but it's really hard when you are broke af. Plus the job market is bullshit I won't even have a job secured if I graduated. I HATE THIS LIFE, I HATE IT.
