“No one is coming to save you” vs. “Reach out for help!”

[gonegal95]

I need help, plain and simple. I can't find one person on this world who will help me without needing something in return beyond what I can give.
I understand nobody is coming to save me. But can someone help me? It's not normal for a human to go completely without any community support. Ive been there for others. Helped others. Go out and socialize regularly. But nobody will just sit with me while I pack to move. Nobody will give me a meal. People I have given meals.

Im so tired. I don't have anybody willing to help. It feels like a death sentence being born without a supportive family. I am going to die because of it. I can't keep living like a leper among society anymore. Im alone. It's always sex required. I'm so tired. I just need someone to help me just once. But my desperate personality scares people off. I do a good job at hiding it. But I've lost that ability now. I decided to move the date from March till this weekend. I don't want be around another week. Every day compounds and gets worse.

Tonight I am eating pizza while I pack my stuff and clean my digital footprint.

 

[pixi]

people are inherently selfish. i know this doesn't help, just wanted to remind you that this not a fault on your end. while it's true there will probably never be someone who swoops in and saves the day, i hope you can find a stable support network <3

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Relatable. Had someone offer to help me out after they find out I was suicidal. Then when I actually needed him, it was "I'm too busy," "call a helpline," "I can't be the only one who talks to you" (true but I reached out so rarely and asked for so little).