I am in an agitated, fearful state, with a slight psychosis. I am lying on the floor, scared to leave the room.
Tomorrow, is not going to be better.
I generally don't know what to do.
I was emailing private psychiatrists yesterday, but just emailing them the list of medications I have tried, together with diagnoses, demonstrated to me there is no hope.
I also had to put in a data access request to get my medical records, and still don't know if they will accept my ID to access these records, which can take thirty days.
I feel scared. My head is goinv back into a wish that I was well enough to play music, but I'm scared to leave the room and my instrument needs fixing.
I also, the world is disturbing and upsetting me.
There's more, it's just hurting my thumb to type this.
My TV and computers are not working.
Tomorrow, is not going to be better.
I generally don't know what to do.
I was emailing private psychiatrists yesterday, but just emailing them the list of medications I have tried, together with diagnoses, demonstrated to me there is no hope.
I also had to put in a data access request to get my medical records, and still don't know if they will accept my ID to access these records, which can take thirty days.
I feel scared. My head is goinv back into a wish that I was well enough to play music, but I'm scared to leave the room and my instrument needs fixing.
I also, the world is disturbing and upsetting me.
There's more, it's just hurting my thumb to type this.
My TV and computers are not working.
