A
annique
earth's rotation gets me dizzy everyday
- Jul 5, 2022
- 201
My ears, how warm they are. Laying now in bed in deep anxiety and in the house of some relatives of mine. My whole body is under stress as I know how fucked I am while I fake being doing ok to all of them.
Can't put many words to describe the feeling of being destroyed inside, and pretending to be ok all during the new-year thing.
I left my SN back where I live. Only if I had brought it here. I think I would just act out of impulse.
I failed my classes and just told them I'm doing ok, otherwise I would be a convicted dumb fuck and that would make me more uneasy while staying in here.
I fake-laughed at silly bad jokes to be more sociable. Now I am in bed with myself and I can't fake any of the truth to myself. I lay here alone with my demons as the fireworks paint the sky as to what is a new year to come.
i'm so sorry for being like this
i want to cry so much, like never before
Can't put many words to describe the feeling of being destroyed inside, and pretending to be ok all during the new-year thing.
I left my SN back where I live. Only if I had brought it here. I think I would just act out of impulse.
I failed my classes and just told them I'm doing ok, otherwise I would be a convicted dumb fuck and that would make me more uneasy while staying in here.
I fake-laughed at silly bad jokes to be more sociable. Now I am in bed with myself and I can't fake any of the truth to myself. I lay here alone with my demons as the fireworks paint the sky as to what is a new year to come.
i'm so sorry for being like this
i want to cry so much, like never before