Fuck man if you're willing to ctb I think you might aswell try ordering pot from the DN to be fully honest
It may save your life
It may save your life
Dark net or try messaging some old friends from school or something for if they know where to get pot, it's alot less risky
I'm so sorry you feel so awful @Cleversusie - you have come here at a bad time. It's ironic that you came here because of the Callie interview as that interview has people on here on edge.
At some point we will may get false accounts made in an attempt to entrap members. We have no way of knowing if an account is genuine or not due to anonymity.
I choose to accept people at face value until proven otherwise.
Your thoughts of violence to others are troubling but I can understand why you might feel like that if no one is listening to you.
Your case worker sounds useless and I suspect you need to see someone higher up the chain. Hard to do if they won't listen to you. Can you use the NHS advocacy service? I've not had dealings with it but I wonder if it might help having an advocate to stand in your corner.
www.nhs.uk
At some point we will may get false accounts made in an attempt to entrap members. We have no way of knowing if an account is genuine or not due to anonymity.
I choose to accept people at face value until proven otherwise.
Your thoughts of violence to others are troubling but I can understand why you might feel like that if no one is listening to you.
Your case worker sounds useless and I suspect you need to see someone higher up the chain. Hard to do if they won't listen to you. Can you use the NHS advocacy service? I've not had dealings with it but I wonder if it might help having an advocate to stand in your corner.
Someone to speak up for you (advocate) - Social care and support guide
Find someone who can sit with you in assessments, speak up for you and help you fill in forms.
www.nhs.uk
People might be on edge but that is no excuse to start accusing me or anyone else they have zero proof. Anyway thanks for the suggestion of an advocate that's definitely worth looking into. I know my thoughts are worrying that's why I know I need help but just dont know where to turn.I'm so sorry you feel so awful @Cleversusie - you have come here at a bad time. It's ironic that you came here because of the Callie interview as that interview has people on here on edge.
At some point we will may get false accounts made in an attempt to entrap members. We have no way of knowing if an account is genuine or not due to anonymity.
I choose to accept people at face value until proven otherwise.
Your thoughts of violence to others are troubling but I can understand why you might feel like that if no one is listening to you.
Your case worker sounds useless and I suspect you need to see someone higher up the chain. Hard to do if they won't listen to you. Can you use the NHS advocacy service? I've not had dealings with it but I wonder if it might help having an advocate to stand in your corner.
Someone to speak up for you (advocate) - Social care and support guide
Find someone who can sit with you in assessments, speak up for you and help you fill in forms.
Acknowledgment of the problem is the first step in recovery
You got this man
Have you tried prescription medication? Lithium really helped me
Yeah I've tried quite a lot of meds a mix of anti depressants and anti psychotics I never really found a mix that works. I've just been prescribed new anti depressants today so hopefully they will work
Guys this is a suicide forum it's not right to argue and bully each other. Wish we could smoke an internet joint and just get along
Hey man don't let these things get to you
You're clearly struggling and so are most people on here.
Take some time away from the forum if you can
I've put a complaint in against him or her this person has no idea what they are doing to me and they dont care. This person shouldn't be on here
Dead beat dad
Enlightened
- Mar 5, 2019
- 1,030
Hello sister,
I'm sorry to hear about the awful time you're having. I don't have any useful answers but like many of the users here I have a PhD in pain.
You will find kindness and compassion here unlike anywhere else you have been. There are abundant stories of people whose lives are a pit of dispair finding light here.
If you want to open up there are many of us (myself included) who will listen.
I wish you peace sister and I hope that you can find some light in the sea of darkness you sail, be kind to yourself, even if no one else will.
DBD
It's not full of kindness and compassion though is it someone is bullying me
Cleversusie, is there a town close enough by that might have better mental facility/coordinators? No matter what, you do need help. At no time is it ok to threaten ANYONE. Please do not feel the only way to get some help requires you to do anything drastic. you are just going to have to keep asking for help until somebody finally helps. we have good listening ears here, but there's not a lot we can do to help, other than listen and steer you to local help. Hugs
I cant go to a different town I have to stay with the coordinators in your area I cant afford to move. I know i need help. I can't help how I feel the thoughts are so intrusive I dont know how to control them
I lean towards her being legit. if you're going to do some covert operation, you wouldn't announce how you came to the site
Take more deep breaths, I know it sounds bullshit but it really does help
Try learning to control your breathing
The human body is a very powerful thing
what happens if you go today, now to the ER and tell them you are wanting to hurt yourself or others?
The police will arrest me again. I'm just stuck to scared to talk to any professions because of what they do to me theres nowhere to turn for me
I'm sorry but you're putting WAYYYYY.... too much focus on @GoodPersonEffed
I really love this line as it uses one member to disprove the value of a website that has 10k members.
It's the same as saying the ENTIRE UK health system sucks due to 1 or 2 individuals.
Maybe you need to use all this energy focused on @GoodPersonEffed to instead focus on getting help and good healthcare. There is nothing any of us can do to help a person that has intrusive thoughts to harm people.
I repeat your first priority should be your mental health not this site. If your experience is not what you expected it to be you can always leave; and in fact I'd recommend that.
You are always welcomed here but again I am quite alarmed that you sound to be in sooooo much distress over one simple internet person when there's an entire health team decisioning your future.
Anyways sending the best to you...
I cant handle it when someone is nasty to me, it feels like the whole world is against me. its bringing up recent trauma where I was accuses of something I didnt do and I'm still trying to get over it and he starts on me he doesnt understand the damage his words are doing, he needs to think and start to care about the way he speaks to people. I dont know how to get help and good healthcare I've exhausted every Avenue. Why should I leave? Dont you think it should be good person who leaves? Theres nothing I can do about the meetings going on about me because they wont let me be involved. Anyway i got a message saying hes going to get told off for how hes behaved so hopefully itll be the Last of it
CyanideSoup
Memento mori
- Oct 1, 2019
- 463
Hi, welcome to the forum. Im sorry it hasnt felt very welcoming, this is a safe space for us and it feels a bit under threat at the moment. I hope that once things settle that it feels like a safe space for you too.
I also have BPD and depression, and I know that the UK Mental Health team isn't very good with treating BPD. I would recommend trying to find an independent advocate to help you get the right care. The way they are treating you is disgusting. Being unwell doesn't make you a criminal. We are here if you want to talk. We all want to support you, and what ever choice you make you aren't on your own.
I also have BPD and depression, and I know that the UK Mental Health team isn't very good with treating BPD. I would recommend trying to find an independent advocate to help you get the right care. The way they are treating you is disgusting. Being unwell doesn't make you a criminal. We are here if you want to talk. We all want to support you, and what ever choice you make you aren't on your own.
If you present yourself to A&E, telling them that you are feeling suicidal/homicidal, they have a duty of care to keep you onsite until you can be assessed by the MH team. You will only be arrested if you try to leave the premises before they're satisfied that you pose no threat, or if your behaviour presents an immediate threat to staff/other patients. While you are waiting to be assessed you will, however, be monitored by security staff (possibly by cctv) to ensure you do not leave or hurt either yourself or others.
As part of the assessment, you must stress that your own coordinator isn't taking you seriously and that if the hospital won't help you then you cannot be held responsible for your actions.
You will only be arrested if your behaviour becomes unmanageable by the healthcare team. You will not be arrested for 'feelings'. If you are arrested, you will be brought back to A+E and forced to undergo assessment.
Good luck.
As part of the assessment, you must stress that your own coordinator isn't taking you seriously and that if the hospital won't help you then you cannot be held responsible for your actions.
You will only be arrested if your behaviour becomes unmanageable by the healthcare team. You will not be arrested for 'feelings'. If you are arrested, you will be brought back to A+E and forced to undergo assessment.
Good luck.
I was arrested for feeling though now they're investigating me I'll never tell a professional how I'm feeling again
Yes, but you told your GP that you felt like killing your coordinator. its important that you don't threaten a specific person x
Ok, but it's because those are my feelings caused by my intrusive thoughts. I watched losing it last night and the girl on there said she had intrusive thoughts to kill her mum and girlfriend and she never got arrested so I dont understand why I did
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