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Hunter7786

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Jun 27, 2023
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Hi all -brand new to this thread.
Until some research on this forum, my plan was always to take about 5,000mg of trazodone. But it seems like it won't be quick and could be very painful with vomiting etc?
I'm in the USA and am welcome to other ideas. I'm a 36 male based in NYC. I've thought about a shotgun but I don't own one. Really looking for something quick and not painful to do this month - maybe even next week on my birthday. Has been a plan of mine for about a year now. Thanks in advance!
 
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Torabol

Student
Apr 15, 2023
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Welcome. As of right now I don't believe there's a comfortable way to CTB, unfortunately. Nembutal is considered the best way to go, but it's not attainable outside of niche situations.

SN Seems to work in 5 to 10 minutes purely going by reports in SaSu, some seem peaceful some less.

As for a firearm, I have a shotgun and other guns too, and that's likely the way I'll go. The problem is the mess.

I'm considering getting SN too. I feel as if every method currently available has very distinct pros and cons which makes choosing so difficult. If Nembutal was available the choice would be clear.

Have a good day.
 
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Mar 26, 2023
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SN seems amazing if you don't mind a little wait for the order to come. Otherwise I'd personally recommend the night night method. It's by far the easiest method & requires the least amount of prep.
 
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Hunter7786

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Jun 27, 2023
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SN seems amazing if you don't mind a little wait for the order to come. Otherwise I'd personally recommend the night night method. It's by far the easiest method & requires the least amount of prep.
Thanks! what is the night night method?
And have you found a place to order SN?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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The information about methods is in the suicide resource compilation section, sadly we exist in a world where suicide is made as difficult as possible for people, so I don't really think it's straightforward to leave this world quickly, reliably and painlessly. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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Hunter7786

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Jun 27, 2023
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Welcome. As of right now I don't believe there's a comfortable way to CTB, unfortunately. Nembutal is considered the best way to go, but it's not attainable outside of niche situations.

SN Seems to work in 5 to 10 minutes purely going by reports in SaSu, some seem peaceful some less.

As for a firearm, I have a shotgun and other guns too, and that's likely the way I'll go. The problem is the mess.

I'm considering getting SN too. I feel as if every method currently available has very distinct pros and cons which makes choosing so difficult. If Nembutal was available the choice would be clear.

Have a good day.
Thanks so much for this reply! Have you figured out where you would order the SN?
I don't mind the mess of the gun- I would probably do it somewhere that wasn't my home.
 
Torabol

Torabol

Student
Apr 15, 2023
107
Thanks so much for this reply! Have you figured out where you would order the SN?
I don't mind the mess of the gun- I would probably do it somewhere that wasn't my home.
There used to be a good source for where I live but it's gone. Currently on the lookout. I'm not sure about the availability in the US, might be some sources, but if not you can stick around a source will eventually pop up.

Hope others in the community who are in your area can help you out a bit more with locating a source if that's your wish.

Best wishes
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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How many pills is 5000 mg of Trazodone? Seems implausible to me, but I have no experience with that drug.
 
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Hunter7786

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Jun 27, 2023
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How many pills is 5000 mg of Trazodone? Seems implausible to me, but I have no experience with that drug.
so I have over 100 pills of trazodone and each is 50mg so i know i have at least that!
The information about methods is in the suicide resource compilation section, sadly we exist in a world where suicide is made as difficult as possible for people, so I don't really think it's straightforward to leave this world quickly, reliably and painlessly. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.
How do I find that section? I'm just learning about the site. Thanks!
 
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Hunter7786

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Jun 27, 2023
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Thanks so much for this reply! Have you figured out where you would order the SN?
I don't mind the mess of the gun- I would probably do it somewhere that wasn't my home.
Actually are you in the usa? just on google i found some places that would ship the sodium nitrite. seems like maybe no issue?
And you'd have to take all of them in order to attain a fatal overdose?????

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I don't know what would be fatal so I probably would let them dissolve in water and drink them all?
Thanks! what is the night night method?
And have you found a place to order SN?
Actually are you in the usa? just on google i found some places that would ship the sodium nitrite. seems like maybe no issue?
 
befree

befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
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This is just a general information. I do not encourage you to use these methods. You act on your own responsibility.
 

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