Never tell anyone irl that you’re suicidal

[enditplz]

Suicide is such a taboo topic and society tells you to seek help and people will be there for you and I believed it. I tell my family and they treat me like I'm broken and a stain on their image, now I no longer talk to them. And don't you dare tell your friends. People don't want to be around someone depressed and struggling with suicidal thoughts, so they slowly push you away, leading to more social isolation and worse thoughts. Better to just put on a mask and act happy. And never tell your doctor either. They'll just put you on meds and now your medical record is permanently stained making health insurance more expensive or next time you need to shop for insurance, you get rejected leaving you uninsured. So now any medical incident will throw me into bankruptcy and homelessness.

What a fucked up world that tells you to seek help and then turns around to fuck you over some more if you do.

 

[compulsoryaliveness]

It's true. I completely regret every time I've told someone. It was relieving in the moment, but the consequences socially have been severe.

I have never been this isolated. I was better off lying.

 

[AngelTear]

Or they hit you with that toxic positivity bullshit and gaslight the fuck out of you so now you feel insane
Either way it's just more and more isolation which is the exact opposite of what people would do if they genuinely cared
Then they still have the nerve to be sad and shit when you finally had enough and take your own life

 

[whywere]

I SO AGREE!!!!!!!!!

Whenever it comes up anytime, anywhere, I do my usual and act stupid.

I have had doctors roll their eyes and every new dentist that I go to seems to know and what a mess. "OH, you have problems?"

Yep, radioactive and every disease known, stay way!!!

Walter

 

[natori]

I know that far too well. The only friends and acquaintances I have left are ones who are clueless and kept in the dark, the rest have already abandoned me.

 

[WakingNightmare]

Last time I mentioned it the gf just gave me
So you aren't happy being with me then?
And I never mentioned it again lol

 

[uzl lover]

I accidentally told my family that I was suicidal, now I regret it because they got angry at me.

 

[whywere]

I accidentally told my family that I was suicidal, now I regret it because they got angry at me.

WOW! What a supportive family you have!! NOT!!!

Move on and if they want to be part of your awesome future, they can be nice, if not, oh well.

NEVER EVER carry rocks around in a backpack, NEVER.

Walter

 

[rs929]

Suicide is such a taboo topic and society tells you to seek help and people will be there for you and I believed it. I tell my family and they treat me like I'm broken and a stain on their image, now I no longer talk to them. And don't you dare tell your friends. People don't want to be around someone depressed and struggling with suicidal thoughts, so they slowly push you away, leading to more social isolation and worse thoughts. Better to just put on a mask and act happy. And never tell your doctor either. They'll just put you on meds and now your medical record is permanently stained making health insurance more expensive or next time you need to shop for insurance, you get rejected leaving you uninsured. So now any medical incident will throw me into bankruptcy and homelessness.

What a fucked up world that tells you to seek help and then turns around to fuck you over some more if you do.

I understand what you mean but if you had diabetes you would tell your doctor. Not saying all suicidal people have mental illnesses but a lot of us certainly do. If you have an illness you have to tell your doctor. And therapist if you can afford one. This is one of the reasons I've seen pro lifers criticize SaSu for, like not encouraging people to get help
Friends and family are completely different. It depends on the specific person. Some people will just abandon you and others will be supportive. You just need to be careful

 

[littlecutecorpse]

i had to learn this the hard way, unfortunately. when i told my friend at the time, she reported me and eventually got me hospitalized. then she had the audacity to call me 'selfish' once i was back and still suicidal as ever. since then i have been getting welfare checks by police thanks to a few random pro-lifers who also found out about my suicidality

when my parents found out, they just treated like it would be solved with prayers and a whole bunch of jesus bullcrap. obviously, this has never worked out, but to this day my parents are still so insistent on it

now that i've told my one remaining friend, he seems to have been more emotionally unavailable since....i would assume since he realized there was nothing he could really do to stop me from ctb'ing. as for my boyfriend, he mopes and begs for me to have hope (like i haven't lost all of that long ago), while also lashing out on me for expressing my ideation.

all i have learned is that there really won't be anyone out there who'll stick with you once they find out how suicidal you are....not unless they've been through the exact same bullshit as you, which is highly unlikely. i wish i knew better at the time, but the best i can do now is sulk here. sucks how taboo suicide has been made by this broken society

 

[U. A.]

Nah. I've told a bunch of people over time and while most have been bullshit responses, a few have been basically exactly the response I wanted. Just learn to get better at reading people. Many suicidals seem horribly inept at this

 

[kuroshimi]

I can only about this comfortable with two (?) people that I meet on the internet I think. They never abandoned me because of my thoughts and actually tried to help.

When I first told to my family that I am suicidal, they are very disappointed, but partially admitted their guilt. After I felt better on medication, they calmed down and they staying in the dark since then.

Actually, it depends. Telling someone that you are suicidal can make things better or worse (probably worse). It's impossible to predict, so, i guess it's better to keep thoughts inside?

 

[whosready4tmrw]

I've only ever told two people, and every time I've been left worse off.

Trust me, it's better to deal with it alone, other people can only make it worse for you.

 

[SASU-KE]

It's not a good idea at all. I've only mildly broached the subject with anyone in real life. But their discomfort alone is enough to put me off from going any further.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I felt that I had to tell people because it felt like an additional burden keeping it to myself.
I felt calmer after venting but who knows the long term consequences.
Perhaps subconsciously I am preparing people for my deletion.
I'm past caring what people think I'm just in an agonising situation.

 

[simji_is_offline]

That's the thing that fucks me up. I think some part of me would hope that if my friends knew how close I really was to ending it, they'd do something drastic and life-saving and perfect. Something I don't even think exists.

But if they actually knew, they'd just think I was pathetic. Like a "I hope she gets help" kind of pathetic. And probably stupid. Like they would just ask why? When I'm seemingly doing okay in life. When I have so much to leave behind.

I don't know. Maybe I'm projecting.

But I know I don't want anyone to find out until the moment they find my body

 

[IronMed]

Fuck this world. Fuck creation. Fuck the cosmos. Fuck the demiurge. Fuck existence. Chaos should engulf everything into irreversible non-existence.

 

[Spite]

I think this is one of the worst parts of being suicidal. It's like no-one really has your back. You're on your own in this struggle. And I hate to say it, but I completely agree. In almost all instances it seems that lying and putting on a fake smile is the better alternative as opposed to confessing to having suicidal thoughts. So much for all those anti-suicide organisations that preach things like "It's okay to speak up", am I right?

 

[banger12]

Hey, if you're really lucky you'll tell family that will then use it to control you! That ends very well always! (Im being sarcastic its fucking awful)

 

[rlllyydepressed]

The worst thing Ive ever done is tell people you act slightly sad and they want to put you in the mental hospital it's so frustrating.

 

[TimingOut]

Suicide is such a taboo topic and society tells you to seek help and people will be there for you and I believed it. I tell my family and they treat me like I'm broken and a stain on their image, now I no longer talk to them. And don't you dare tell your friends. People don't want to be around someone depressed and struggling with suicidal thoughts, so they slowly push you away, leading to more social isolation and worse thoughts. Better to just put on a mask and act happy. And never tell your doctor either. They'll just put you on meds and now your medical record is permanently stained making health insurance more expensive or next time you need to shop for insurance, you get rejected leaving you uninsured. So now any medical incident will throw me into bankruptcy and homelessness.

What a fucked up world that tells you to seek help and then turns around to fuck you over some more if you do.

Or they hit you with that toxic positivity bullshit and gaslight the fuck out of you so now you feel insane
Either way it's just more and more isolation which is the exact opposite of what people would do if they genuinely cared
Then they still have the nerve to be sad and shit when you finally had enough and take your own life

It is just another social gathering for them, LOL !

 

[InevitableDeath]

Suicide is such a taboo topic and society tells you to seek help and people will be there for you and I believed it. I tell my family and they treat me like I'm broken and a stain on their image, now I no longer talk to them. And don't you dare tell your friends. People don't want to be around someone depressed and struggling with suicidal thoughts, so they slowly push you away, leading to more social isolation and worse thoughts. Better to just put on a mask and act happy. And never tell your doctor either. They'll just put you on meds and now your medical record is permanently stained making health insurance more expensive or next time you need to shop for insurance, you get rejected leaving you uninsured. So now any medical incident will throw me into bankruptcy and homelessness.

What a fucked up world that tells you to seek help and then turns around to fuck you over some more if you do.

Completely correct - should be a sticky. Along with
Don't attempt with any method that's less than 80% certain.
Medical professionals aren't there to help you.
Most people will bully you if they sense weakness.
Society is an illusion.
Everyone will betray you in the end.
Go out fighting.

 

[BlueberryDeer]

I have been lying to any psychiatrist hiding out my suicide attempt and my suicidal thoughts because I don't want to end in a focking psych ward.