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1exitstrategy

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Sep 23, 2019
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I am at the point where I need to ctb, probably in a few months. I will leave behind people who love and care for me but for my situation, I am worth more dead than alive. I do not want to be burden to anyone and want to leave quietly and peacefully. N or F seem like the best way. I just need to know how to acquire it. I also read in the news that ODing on fake oxy laced with F is common- does anyone think know if there is pain in that? It seems like you can buy it off craigslist in major cities for $30 a pill. So if I buy 5 pills and take it all at once , would I just knock out and never wake up? I've never taken pills before so I don't think I have any tolerance. I emailed bob so I will see where that leads. But it says that he sells powder so how would I ingest that?
 
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pole

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Sep 18, 2018
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I am at the point where I need to ctb, probably in a few months. I will leave behind people who love and care for me but for my situation, I am worth more dead than alive. I do not want to be burden to anyone and want to leave quietly and peacefully. N or F seem like the best way. I just need to know how to acquire it. I also read in the news that ODing on fake oxy laced with F is common- does anyone think know if there is pain in that? It seems like you can buy it off craigslist in major cities for $30 a pill. So if I buy 5 pills and take it all at once , would I just knock out and never wake up? I've never taken pills before so I don't think I have any tolerance. I emailed bob so I will see where that leads. But it says that he sells powder so how would I ingest that?
well you gotta understand there extremely hard to get, unless of course its online. But these listings in major cities are just busts waiting to happen. in many major cities in NA, its still something like a controlled substance. Especially for 30 bucks, off the bat with the price its extremely fishy. If anything with F was 30 bucks, i doubt half of the community here including myself would be alive right now. ofcourse, its a street drug still; which is how guys like mac miller got them, unfortunately for mac, he didnt want F but he got what he wanted laced with F. RIP.

I guess you just gotta really know people and have connections to get it just like that street wise. But getting N or F ideally id try online, with N, new chinese seller, or try the darkweb.

From what iv read, its relatively peaceful i guess. Both n and f.
 
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ObsessiveCompulsive

ObsessiveCompulsive

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Sep 26, 2019
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What exactly is "N" seen it mentioned here in the forums, tried looking it up on Google and couldn't find anything.
Nevermind found the name in the abbreviations section.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

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Apr 7, 2019
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Definitely F - I found multiple vendors online.
Ive yet to find N, probably there are no sources. The closest thing I stumbled upon is Bellergot, which is some mix of a short acting barbiturate and anesthesia medication
 

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