Hi everyone,
I'm Nico, from France.
After some months of thinking I am more than ready.
Since I've decided to CTB, I feel so free.
I'v wrote a letter to say bye.
"Grand speeches aren't really my thing. Some will be surprised, others less so, but please know that I am okay.
This is a carefully considered decision. the only one that feels right to me.
I didn't choose to be born, nor how I was built. I tried to find my place, to be a good person, to be there for my friends... sometimes too much, sometimes clumsily. I apologize for that.
My fear of being abandoned often took up too much space, and I ended up damaging what I valued most.
But beyond that, it's the world itself that I no longer understand. I finally did the math: the price of the ticket has become much more expensive than the show. I no longer want to be a cog that exhausts itself to produce emptiness and enrich people who couldn't care less. Money is an oil that costs too much soul, and I no longer want to sell my dreams just for the right to survive in a system I reject.
Don't see this as a weakness, but as a liberation.I no longer want to fight for a place I can't find in a world that doesn't resemble me.I would have loved a world of collective intelligence and a universal basic income, but we are far from it.
Thank you for the beautiful moments. I am leaving so I no longer suffer and no longer cause pain. I have organized everything to make it as simple as possible for you. I am sorry for the grief, but this is the first time I am truly thinking of myself."
I'm a bit scared not scared of the death but of missing it...
I decided to do it after christmas to spend a last time with my family.
I bought 200g of SN in 2 differents website to be sure to get it.
I'm still waiting I hope to have it before N.Y.
I've some Benzos : Alprazolam 0.25mg (3 box of 30)
How many should I take ?
I'm still trying to figure out how to get metoclopramide.
In France we can get Vogalib without prescription but I don't know if it will work.
What do you think about Vogalib ?
I read some thread about it but no one have confirmed.
Thanks for you king help and sorry if my english isn't perfect.
__________Update__________
I've got a mail of one seller of SN :
What should I do ?
I'm Nico, from France.
After some months of thinking I am more than ready.
Since I've decided to CTB, I feel so free.
I'v wrote a letter to say bye.
"Grand speeches aren't really my thing. Some will be surprised, others less so, but please know that I am okay.
This is a carefully considered decision. the only one that feels right to me.
I didn't choose to be born, nor how I was built. I tried to find my place, to be a good person, to be there for my friends... sometimes too much, sometimes clumsily. I apologize for that.
My fear of being abandoned often took up too much space, and I ended up damaging what I valued most.
But beyond that, it's the world itself that I no longer understand. I finally did the math: the price of the ticket has become much more expensive than the show. I no longer want to be a cog that exhausts itself to produce emptiness and enrich people who couldn't care less. Money is an oil that costs too much soul, and I no longer want to sell my dreams just for the right to survive in a system I reject.
Don't see this as a weakness, but as a liberation.I no longer want to fight for a place I can't find in a world that doesn't resemble me.I would have loved a world of collective intelligence and a universal basic income, but we are far from it.
Thank you for the beautiful moments. I am leaving so I no longer suffer and no longer cause pain. I have organized everything to make it as simple as possible for you. I am sorry for the grief, but this is the first time I am truly thinking of myself."
I'm a bit scared not scared of the death but of missing it...
I decided to do it after christmas to spend a last time with my family.
I bought 200g of SN in 2 differents website to be sure to get it.
I'm still waiting I hope to have it before N.Y.
I've some Benzos : Alprazolam 0.25mg (3 box of 30)
How many should I take ?
I'm still trying to figure out how to get metoclopramide.
In France we can get Vogalib without prescription but I don't know if it will work.
What do you think about Vogalib ?
I read some thread about it but no one have confirmed.
Thanks for you king help and sorry if my english isn't perfect.
__________Update__________
I've got a mail of one seller of SN :
_________
What should I do ?
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