Despite being suicidal i have been trying to get treatment while waiting for my method to arrive, even though I have been for 7 years already.
Waited a month for a talking therapy referral and then they said I needed to go someplace else so I waited another month for that.
The someplace else was even more useless and the nurse said himself that if i wanted any sort of diagnosis or actually expedient treatment I needed to go private. He also rattled off about services that could have helped me that no longer exist, and said he didn't believe i had bipolar without giving a reason despite matching symptoms, a family history, and treatment resistance to standard depression. All he could do was make referrals to online group sessions ( I despise online and group therapy for separate reasons, mainly that they make me worse), and ask my GP for my ninth anti depressant (which is something i could have just booked a gp appointment for), after explaining that just anti depressant have ALWAYS made me more suicidal, and that currently I'm the most suicidal while off of them I've ever been.
I have health insurance so I tried private, but I needed to cancel treatment with the second service first, so I did.
Private insurance says said they can't take me and I need to see the NHS crisis team, as I need '24/7 care'. I HAD been referred to the crisis team after telling someone i had a plan, but they decided not to go ahead with that referral (without telling me) due to the fact I was under the care of the second team. Even now I'm discharged from them this crisis team will not help me.
I dont need a crisis team anyway. I need a reason to live; diagnosis and treatment of my specific disorders, involving medication.
Im not eligible for any sort of benefits or that might be that reason.
So right now i have no care and literally nobody will give me it, even if I'm willing to pay. Because I'm too 'high risk '
High risk of what? Legal liability? Dying if I don't get the treatment I'm being denied for being high risk?
I was suicidal before but now it's all consuming. That private referral, a process that took many hours to set up, was my last hope, and I honestly don't even want to try and get better because I just get disrespected.
Waited a month for a talking therapy referral and then they said I needed to go someplace else so I waited another month for that.
The someplace else was even more useless and the nurse said himself that if i wanted any sort of diagnosis or actually expedient treatment I needed to go private. He also rattled off about services that could have helped me that no longer exist, and said he didn't believe i had bipolar without giving a reason despite matching symptoms, a family history, and treatment resistance to standard depression. All he could do was make referrals to online group sessions ( I despise online and group therapy for separate reasons, mainly that they make me worse), and ask my GP for my ninth anti depressant (which is something i could have just booked a gp appointment for), after explaining that just anti depressant have ALWAYS made me more suicidal, and that currently I'm the most suicidal while off of them I've ever been.
I have health insurance so I tried private, but I needed to cancel treatment with the second service first, so I did.
Private insurance says said they can't take me and I need to see the NHS crisis team, as I need '24/7 care'. I HAD been referred to the crisis team after telling someone i had a plan, but they decided not to go ahead with that referral (without telling me) due to the fact I was under the care of the second team. Even now I'm discharged from them this crisis team will not help me.
I dont need a crisis team anyway. I need a reason to live; diagnosis and treatment of my specific disorders, involving medication.
Im not eligible for any sort of benefits or that might be that reason.
So right now i have no care and literally nobody will give me it, even if I'm willing to pay. Because I'm too 'high risk '
High risk of what? Legal liability? Dying if I don't get the treatment I'm being denied for being high risk?
I was suicidal before but now it's all consuming. That private referral, a process that took many hours to set up, was my last hope, and I honestly don't even want to try and get better because I just get disrespected.
