Venting My safe method turned out to have a high risk of surviving and ending up paralyzed, I can't access SN, I'm not American to get a gun, I don't know wha

[Misanthrope0000]

I felt really safe when I discovered that injecting air into your veins can kill you, usually with a heart attack or a stroke, I felt save knowing that I can ctb at anytime but I just found out that it's very dangerous and you can end up disabled, I don't know what to do , I'm not even privileged enough to be born in a country where you can simply buy SN or a gun, I fucking hate my life so much, I don't fucking know how to exist this shit world anymore.

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

I was in the exact same position a year or two ago. Things got a lot worse before they got better. I'm sorry.

 

[soonnotkoei]

well good on you for actually doing your research. there are people who dont do that and are determined to use their method which is oftentimes risky.

there are other methods besides SN and guns but how peaceful/painless you find them is up to you. please just dont act out of impulse without proper planning. wishing you good luck.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

This is why MAID should exists... You hearing this lurkers!!! We are not to fucking blame for this... This world killed us, not us. If you want to fight between rationally and being logical, go ahead, but you are hurting people who have no freedom to choose between happiness and life. This isn't our fight, but the worlds who has made us this way. this person is suffering because of the system you are in. WAKE UP!!! Help get this law up throughout the world. This is so terrifying and so heartwrecnhing, my god, have a damn heart, you fools, and stop making it about you!!

I felt really safe when I discovered that injecting air into your veins can kill you, usually with a heart attack or a stroke, I felt save knowing that I can ctb at anytime but I just found out that it's very dangerous and you can end up disabled, I don't know what to do , I'm not even privileged enough to be born in a country where you can simply buy SN or a gun, I fucking hate my life so much, I don't fucking know how to exist this shit world anymore.

 

[Misanthrope0000]

This is why MAID should exists... You hearing this lurkers!!! We are not to fucking blame for this... This world killed us, not us. If you want to fight between rationally and being logical, go ahead, but you are hurting people who have no freedom to choose between happiness and life. This isn't our fight, but the worlds who has made us this way. this person is suffering because of the system you are in. WAKE UP!!! Help get this law up throughout the world. This is so terrifying and so heartwrecnhing, my god, have a damn heart, you fools, and stop making it about you!!

I just looked up MAID and you're completely right, it should exist especially in third world shitholes where we have absolutely no choice to escape and live a better life

Most people that are against suicide think that they're doing a great job by telling us that life is precious etc, but they don't realize how cruel they can sound to people like me.

 

[NegevChina]

I felt really safe when I discovered that injecting air into your veins can kill you, usually with a heart attack or a stroke, I felt save knowing that I can ctb at anytime but I just found out that it's very dangerous and you can end up disabled, I don't know what to do , I'm not even privileged enough to be born in a country where you can simply buy SN or a gun, I fucking hate my life so much, I don't fucking know how to exist this shit world anymore.

We are all in the same boat here. There is no completely safe method, they all have a risk of failure, though some are considered safer than others.
You can find a list here:
lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods/
The list is quite old so SN and Inert gas that are considered among the safest methods are not included.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I just looked up MAID and you're completely right, it should exist especially in third world shitholes where we have absolutely no choice to escape and live a better life

Most people that are against suicide think that they're doing a great job by telling us that life is precious etc, but they don't realize how cruel they can sound to people like me.

I truly wish you didn't have to suffer in this existence of horror and treacherous pain and wonder how much we have to endure for them to just answer and listen to our screams of terror and cries for help as we stay trapped in silence because no one believes us or answers out to us... It's so damn wrong :(

Ah, I think you would like to know of shallow drowning if you can get access to a big filled tank and water, as @curiousbeing is documenting everything that you may find interesting regarding how your body looses its pull to survive and you may like this method as a second choice if you can :') I truly hope you find the peace you deserve (':

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering is what I personally fear, I find it so horrific how such can happen, I just wish there's the option to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I see so much cruelty in how the option of painless, guaranteed death is denied. But anyway I wish you the best, I understand hating existing, I get that it's so torturous and tiring feeling trapped in this existence.