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- Jun 16, 2024
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Nine years.
I worked on myself for nine years so that one day I could tell the person who kept me from killing myself that I had reached the point they said I would.
I had three goals: get off medication, make friends, and have faith in God.
I got to that point. I tried telling them today. They still won't speak to me.
I don't blame them. I was an ass to them all those years ago, and eventually they just stopped talking to me.
Now it feels pointless. I wanted to be able to tell them that. I don't need to be friends with them again or anything, but I needed to hear them say "I told you so".
I can't stand this. It's driving me crazy. I don't know what to do. The one single reason why I bothered trying will not happen. It's beyond disappointing.
I hate myself so fucking much.
I worked on myself for nine years so that one day I could tell the person who kept me from killing myself that I had reached the point they said I would.
I had three goals: get off medication, make friends, and have faith in God.
I got to that point. I tried telling them today. They still won't speak to me.
I don't blame them. I was an ass to them all those years ago, and eventually they just stopped talking to me.
Now it feels pointless. I wanted to be able to tell them that. I don't need to be friends with them again or anything, but I needed to hear them say "I told you so".
I can't stand this. It's driving me crazy. I don't know what to do. The one single reason why I bothered trying will not happen. It's beyond disappointing.
I hate myself so fucking much.