My practice plan

[DobryDen]

I am going to start a walk through. My plan is to stand in the ocean with weight on my body. Blow my head off, but should my body be alive Ill sink in the water and drown. (My aunt taught me that lesson- ensure your death with double action suicide) So tomorrow, I go to hear a friend speak then I go to the beach with my pistol and chest weights. I will get used to being there. maybe get in the water.

I am sure I will need to take some Xanax to reduce the fear on the night I actually do it. But I do not think Ill take the Xanax on the walk-through/practice run because I don't want to drive home on Xanax. I suppose I could take an Uber but I get loopy on Xanax and it might be a problem being loopy with a gun. Not worried I'll use it on anyone but myself, but others wouldn't appreciate knowing I had one.

What do you think? Input? Ideas? Guidance? Wisdom?

I just want to go. I don't feel sorry for myself any longer. I am ready to go.

 

[Jrmull1993]

What exactly do you plan on practicing, or is it more of a walkthru to ease anxiety?

 

[DobryDen]

What exactly do you plan on practicing, or is it more of a walkthru to ease anxiety?

you are correct.... its a walk-through. I am hoping familiarizing myself with the actions and location will help when the night comes for good. Make "going to beach to shoot myself" just another thing Ive done several times... normalize it.... Thank you for the thought and for your response.

 

[Jrmull1993]

you are correct.... its a walk-through. I am hoping familiarizing myself with the actions and location will help when the night comes for good. Make "going to beach to shoot myself" just another thing Ive done several times... normalize it.... Thank you for the thought and for your response.

Gotcha. Best of luck, br careful not to get saltwater on/in the firearm, and be careful not to cause too much printing if your carrying concealed.

 

[DobryDen]

Gotcha. Best of luck, br careful not to get saltwater on/in the firearm, and be careful not to cause too much printing if your carrying concealed.

good advice! quick question tho- what is "printing". I will be carrying it concealed. (Was thinking in a backpack).

good advice! quick question tho- what is "printing". I will be carrying it concealed. (Was thinking in a backpack).

Im so tired of being to scared to do this. Billions of humans have met their end. Jeez. Just do it.

 

[Jrmull1993]

@DobryDen If your carrying in a backpack you don't need to worry about printing. Printing is when the outline of a concealed firearm shows through clothing, similar to this:

 

[Euthanza]

By "standing in the ocean", do you mean you will stand on a boat? Or sink your body down to your shoulder near the beach?