Method My only option is complicated and risky. Any tips?

[Cochalita01]

I have got myself into a potentially life destroying situation, I have 1 month to make my decision. In 1 month I will know if I truly have destroyed my life or if everything will be ok. If in 1 month I discover that everything is ok, I will have my account deleted, as this will no longer be relevant. In the mean time, I need to prepare myself for if the need to
CTB does arise, so I can maximise my chances of doing it properly.
The problem with my situation is I live in a small city with very few high rise buildings, I can't leave the house anyway due to quarantine. The only option I have is jumping/falling from the window of my 4th floor apartment. From my knowledge the only way to guarantee death from such a low height is to land head first. Below my lounge room window is a tangle of cables running both parallel to and criss-crossing the street. This is very precarious and tricky as I risk being spun, flipped on the way down and not landing correctly and thus becoming the property of disability care services for the rest of my life, and the subject of boasting for some egotistical nurses "whose job it is to help people".
Below are the photos of my street to give you the idea;;;;;;; does anyone (especially someone trained in geometry) have tips on how I can fall straight, without being flipped or spun on the way down? should I take my chances falling down the narrow margin between the wall of the building and the parallel cables? or should I dive out a couple of meters into the middle of the street? also, the four straight silver colored cables above the main bundle are completely uncovered, exposed high voltage cables. Could I jump onto them and electrocute myself? is there something I could throw on them first to test if they are turned on? Thank you

 

[defeated]

I take some issue with health-care professionals too. Beyond that I don't think I can help your situation any, other than trying to convince you not to jump. I sincerely hope within a month whatever you're facing will pull through in your favor and you can put this speed bump in your life in the past my friend.

 

[I’mDone]

I'm pretty sure that the 4th floor is not high enough. The risk of attempted electrocution is that the cables are not a wide enough area to hold you stable. Most likely you'd get a shock then fall to the ground. Trying to land head-first would be very difficult for the reasons you already mentioned.

I would ask you to seriously think about your situation. Is your life-destroying situation truly life-destroying? Is there nothing you could do to make things better? I think your proposed method is risky and I'd hate to think of someone being trapped in a situation where their independence is lost through injury.

Please think carefully. Is there anyone you can talk to? I'm not a counsellor or anything like that but free to message if you want a sympathetic ear and unbiased opinion.

 

[JSauter]

Not high enough. Don't do that.

 

[lanitoasmr]

Its's not high enough, you can end like a vegetable and that'll be worse

 

[Cochalita01]

I'm pretty sure that the 4th floor is not high enough. The risk of attempted electrocution is that the cables are not a wide enough area to hold you stable. Most likely you'd get a shock then fall to the ground. Trying to land head-first would be very difficult for the reasons you already mentioned.

I would ask you to seriously think about your situation. Is your life-destroying situation truly life-destroying? Is there nothing you could do to make things better? I think your proposed method is risky and I'd hate to think of someone being trapped in a situation where their independence is lost through injury.

Please think carefully. Is there anyone you can talk to? I'm not a counsellor or anything like that but free to message if you want a sympathetic ear and unbiased opinion.

shit. It really is a tough one. Another potential option, is decapitation through long range dropping;;; I have a support pillar in my lounge room that I could tie rope to, and around my neck and then jump out the window (at night);;;;; Does anyone know how long the rope has to be to ensure complete decapitation?

 

[qwerty_in_me]

given the placing of the pillar and the window, a simple hanging should suffice.
However if you want to decap yourself you'd want to go with thin steel cable and make sure the noose when tied to the pillar droops roughly to the second floor or two heads taller than you are.

Don't lose your heads
-qwerty

 

[Cochalita01]

given the placing of the pillar and the window, a simple hanging should suffice.
However if you want to decap yourself you'd want to go with thin steel cable and make sure the noose when tied to the pillar droops roughly to the second floor or two heads taller than you are.

Don't lose your heads
-qwerty

Thank you very much. It is important that I decap myself, because if I hang myself, the people on the floor below will hear me banging against the windows and dangling, they will surely call an ambulance;;;;; besides, suffocating to death is unbearably painful.

Another issue that can arise, is that I must go to the hardware shop buy the cable, and due to the strict quarantine you need to have a national identity document to leave the house. I was just about to get mine when the city locked down on me at the last moment; My mother has one, and is allowed to go out for supplies on Tuesdays, however I can't just say "hey mum can you go to the hardware shop and get me 4 meters of cable?"
Which means, I must do it myself, and risk being arrested and put into prison for breaking the quarantine laws. In this country you will be put away for 10 years for breeching quarantine.
Considering I am in a country with a long history of chronic economic challenges, that means that a prison here would not have any luxuries; no medical treatment, no isolation wards for "at risk" inmates. As a back up, do you think I could CTB in prison by
a) licking all the walls, doors, railings, floors, toilets etc. to contract the Coronavirus
or
b) fabricate a story to the inmates that I am in for rape/child abuse or some horrible cruel sexual crime? considering there is no isoation wards, I know I would probably be murdered within a few months after having watched many documentaries on prison life in the past. My legacy would not be damaged either, because anyone outside the prison will have access to the court records which would clearly state "breech of quarantine laws"

what are your thoughts on this ?

 

[hunter_lewis]

Jumping from the 4th floor would be the stupidest thing you can do right now. You will probably not die and just end up shattering both of your legs and maybe end up never walking again. I have no insights on the cables situation.
About the decapitation method: I don't know if it is enough, you will probably end up hanging yourself and attracting all the neighbors.

CTB is something that takes ample thought and preparation. It should never be done with a method where you are unsure of it.
And even if you get put into prison, and lick the fllor you will probably end up getting some bad poisoning but not dying.

Lie low- and wait for now. Maybe this is the best, it can give you a chance to reassess your life and maybe find out that ctb is not the best option for you. it is best to wait until the virus crisis has passed.

 

[FohPah]

shit. It really is a tough one. Another potential option, is decapitation through long range dropping;;; I have a support pillar in my lounge room that I could tie rope to, and around my neck and then jump out the window (at night);;;;; Does anyone know how long the rope has to be to ensure complete decapitation? View attachment 30527

Better to avoid running a rope over a sharp edge like the edge of an open window, if the rope is going to be shock-loaded like in a long-drop hanging.

And it looks like those short bottom panes don't open. If they don't open, then you have to run the rope over one of them, which means it would likely shatter under the weight. The broken glass could cut the rope.

I don't know if that applies to steel cables, though.

 

[Mm80]

Please do not do this forvthe same reasons as above.there is no rush.you have time.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Dude.

Your mother used emotional blackmail to get you to not do something, that is, smoking.

You've said how wonderful she is, practically a saint. If she's that great, then have a conversation with her. Tell her:

1) You're so afraid of her following through that you're actually considering suicide for fuck's sake.

2) She either needs to find another way to convince you to not smoke, or she needs to accept that it's your body to fuck up, even if she's the one who is responsible for you if you have a health crisis because of smoking.

3) Her threats work psychologically to make smoking more desirable. Tell her she needs to come up with something better or accept that you'll smoke when you want to and learn from the natural consequences or not at all.

 

[Cochalita01]

Dude.

Your mother used emotional blackmail to get you to not do something, that is, smoking.

You've said how wonderful she is, practically a saint. If she's that great, then have a conversation with her. Tell her:

1) You're so afraid of her following through that you're actually considering suicide for fuck's sake.

2) She either needs to find another way to convince you to not smoke, or she needs to accept that it's your body to fuck up, even if she's the one who is responsible for you if you have a health crisis because of smoking.

3) Her threats work psychologically to make smoking more desirable. Tell her she needs to come up with something better or accept that you'll smoke when you want to and learn from the natural consequences or not at all.

Yes, perhaps there is some truth in that. But in my opinion there is no such thing as a "saint". There are people with very good qualities and traits, such as loyalty, dedication, selflessness which in my previous post I highlighted describing my mother; however even the "best" of people are flawed and make terrible mistakes also; being a parent is often at times a very horrible and difficult job, but being a parent of someone who has autism, tourettes, OCD, anxiety, oppositional defiance disorder; emotional and behavioral problems; and especially of an adult with such conditions still living permanently at home !!! And she also has some of those neurological conditions herself because it is a genetic condition that runs in the family; so it is very hard for her too. Many times we trigger each other. And the reason that she doesn't want me smoking is not only the health risks, but like I previously mentioned I am highly allergic to it and it is extremely dangerous for me;;; it makes my anxiety spiral out of control, rage attacks, makes my tourettes unmanageable;;; it makes my thoughts race so fast I cant concentrate or focus on anything;; and if I let it continue too long I develop paranoia and delusional thinking also. It is quite possible that tobacco is partly the reason I joined this site; It is very dangerous for me to use tobacco because it practically makes me go psycho. For me, it is a dangerous drug. Now that I am coming off it (detoxing) I can think much clearer and make much more sense of life and reality.
Anyway, I think I will be deleting my account very soon, because the usual cycle of more than a decade is happening again.
I must remember, that every 3-6 months mom just breaks down, can't deal with it anymore, says she's giving up on me, life, everything and everyone, she yells, screams, locks herself in her bedroom;;; and after 3-5 days she's back to her normal crazy funny awesome self again. I am sorry to anyone who have much worse and permanent problems who I may have trivialised !!!
stay safe everyone, and don't forget to remember the good things about yourselves before you make any final decisions, we all have good (and bad) parts !!! Speaking from personal experience and the testimony of others, any person can lose everything in an instant, but years down the track we can gain things we could not have previously imagined, and even end up happier than ever before. Let that influence the decisiones of anyone who reads this !!! Stay away from drugs also !!!

 

[Otter]

Thank you very much. It is important that I decap myself, because if I hang myself, the people on the floor below will hear me banging against the windows and dangling, they will surely call an ambulance;;;;; besides, suffocating to death is unbearably painful.

Another issue that can arise, is that I must go to the hardware shop buy the cable, and due to the strict quarantine you need to have a national identity document to leave the house. I was just about to get mine when the city locked down on me at the last moment; My mother has one, and is allowed to go out for supplies on Tuesdays, however I can't just say "hey mum can you go to the hardware shop and get me 4 meters of cable?"
Which means, I must do it myself, and risk being arrested and put into prison for breaking the quarantine laws. In this country you will be put away for 10 years for breeching quarantine.
Considering I am in a country with a long history of chronic economic challenges, that means that a prison here would not have any luxuries; no medical treatment, no isolation wards for "at risk" inmates. As a back up, do you think I could CTB in prison by
a) licking all the walls, doors, railings, floors, toilets etc. to contract the Coronavirus
or
b) fabricate a story to the inmates that I am in for rape/child abuse or some horrible cruel sexual crime? considering there is no isoation wards, I know I would probably be murdered within a few months after having watched many documentaries on prison life in the past. My legacy would not be damaged either, because anyone outside the prison will have access to the court records which would clearly state "breech of quarantine laws"

what are your thoughts on this ?

Is this a joke?