My new plan, I guess

[Seekingawayout]

I guess my new plan is just to keep trying to hang myself until I succeed. I can't get what would be my preferred method to work.
I came really close to getting tourniquet (preferred) to work as intended last night, BUT I must not have enough pressure. I didn't get exploding head, I felt dizzy, but just never passed out.
I wish I could Jerry rig up a Korean collar somehow.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you manage to find what you wish for, it really sounds like you have suffered a lot. It certainly makes hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all these people succeeding with it, I envy them so much.

 

[Seekingawayout]

I hope that you manage to find what you wish for, it really sounds like you have suffered a lot. It certainly makes hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all these people succeeding with it, I envy them so much.

Me too. I watch the video on the choking game and it looks so easy. But I just can't get myself to stop standing up when I'm close to blackout.
I'm hoping one of these times I'll just fail to save myself.
I even considered trying full over the door to my closet, but I'm not sure my rope is strong enough.