I plan to ctb today, although I may fail, I really hope this isn't the case. In past attempts, I would have gone through cowardice and stopped it. In the end, life just got worse. I was living through a hell before death. I wanted a painless death, but I don't think I am going to be able to do that. For all my life, people wanted me to live more. Get more hobbies, go outside more, make new friends. But in the end, once I had those, I realized they didn't make me fulfilled. Nothing in life made me fulfilled. So why should I continue?
I have to go through the pain, and the suffering of death, if I want to get through life. I have tried to outrun it, to find a painless death, but I am going to face it head on. I often tried to hide from others, and run away from things I couldn't handle, but I'm not going to do that anymore.
I thank you all for your advice, help, and support. It means the world to me. I would have never met so many people who were in the place I was. I found this site through a pdf file when searching for guides for hanging, and it has been a thrilling experience to say the least. I hope all of you may find greener pastures, and get the peace you deserve.
See you wherever we meet next
I have to go through the pain, and the suffering of death, if I want to get through life. I have tried to outrun it, to find a painless death, but I am going to face it head on. I often tried to hide from others, and run away from things I couldn't handle, but I'm not going to do that anymore.
I thank you all for your advice, help, and support. It means the world to me. I would have never met so many people who were in the place I was. I found this site through a pdf file when searching for guides for hanging, and it has been a thrilling experience to say the least. I hope all of you may find greener pastures, and get the peace you deserve.
See you wherever we meet next
