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citrix_s

citrix_s

Member
Sep 21, 2025
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Hello everyone, and sorry for my English. In January of this year, I tried CTB with SN. For the first 10 minutes, nothing happened, and I thought my SN was bad. But I started throwing up everything, and they found my goodbye note early, and I was in the hospital for 5 days recovering.

I'm planning a new CTB for this month. I'll try 20 lorazepam pills and SN. I hope to have a successful outcome.

I'll probably schedule the goodbye notes to be sent 1 day after the CTB this time so they can't ruin my attempt again.
 
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Jello Biafra

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Sep 9, 2024
476
Your English is fine - no need to apologize.

I'm sorry you are going through this.

You seem to already have a plan, so I won't interrupt, and only wish you peace in whatever you do.
 
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Traveller12724

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May 14, 2024
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Hello everyone, and sorry for my English. In January of this year, I tried CTB with SN. For the first 10 minutes, nothing happened, and I thought my SN was bad. But I started throwing up everything, and they found my goodbye note early, and I was in the hospital for 5 days recovering.

I'm planning a new CTB for this month. I'll try 20 lorazepam pills and SN. I hope to have a successful outcome.

I'll probably schedule the goodbye notes to be sent 1 day after the CTB this time so they can't ruin my attempt again.
Did you use any nausea meds at all ? I am sorry to hear about everything, I can only wish you peace in whatever you want for yourself.
 
citrix_s

citrix_s

Member
Sep 21, 2025
31
Did you use any nausea meds at all ? I am sorry to hear about everything, I can only wish you peace in whatever you want for yourself.
I didn't use any anti-nausea medication. That was another mistake of mine. I'll try to get some anti-nausea medication this time.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,833
I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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w1ngedpearl

Member
Apr 17, 2025
80
I hope you'll find peace. As mentioned before, antiemetics are highly recommended to not throw up much. Best wishes for you.
 
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PhDone

Experienced
Jul 29, 2024
269
I guess what you went through last time didnt put you off SN. Sounds like benzos would help though. Wishing you peace. Thanks for posting.
 

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