Venting Just failed an attempt

[Norf I Guess]

I used a tie to form a Bowman knot around a door handle and a slipknot around my neck, and kneeled forward, I expected that it be it.

What felt like a minute later but was truthfully only about 15 seconds later, I felt my face going numb and my senses dulling, and like the fool I am, I recoiled back. It was simultaneously a surreal feeling knowing I was only about 30 seconds of consciousness away from a peaceful end, and rather a strange feeling knowing i could at any moment just do that again, but better. Definitely made some texts I sent awkward after, and now I have a faint red bruise around the front of my neck.

So all I ask, what comes next? Where do I go from here? Do I just keep trying more and more? Do I find a new, easier method? What happens now? Is someone going to find out and throw me in the looney bin?

Now here's a cute cat to lighten the mood.

 

[isthisthingon]

Tell no one, unless you want the looney bin and think it will help you. It could, but I despise the psych ward.

 

[Norf I Guess]

Tell no one, unless you want the looney bin and think it will help you. It could, but I despise the psych ward.

Been there before, actively made things worse. And either way, I'd rather be dead than be "better" at this point.

 

[fadedghost]

I used a tie to form a Bowman knot around a door handle and a slipknot around my neck, and kneeled forward, I expected that it be it.

What felt like a minute later but was truthfully only about 15 seconds later, I felt my face going numb and my senses dulling, and like the fool I am, I recoiled back. It was simultaneously a surreal feeling knowing I was only about 30 seconds of consciousness away from a peaceful end, and rather a strange feeling knowing i could at any moment just do that again, but better. Definitely made some texts I sent awkward after, and now I have a faint red bruise around the front of my neck.

So all I ask, what comes next? Where do I go from here? Do I just keep trying more and more? Do I find a new, easier method? What happens now? Is someone going to find out and throw me in the looney bin?

Now here's a cute cat to lighten the mood.
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Did you send texts implying or stating you were ending your life?

 

[Aphid]

it's one day at a time now. talk with us, let us know your feelings, your thoughts, talk to us about what you're thinking and what's on your mind right now