Story My experience jumping.

[Metavoid]

I am also jumping.....I feel so bad for letting down those who have supported me...... but the time as come.

If you are absolutely sure about it. It's absolutely instant once you jump. There's absolutely no way to stop it. Unless you jump from a height that isnt enough and survive to tell the tale like me. For example, partial hanging - you can attempt it and if you feel uncomfortable or survival kicks in you can stop it. A shot to the head is similar to jumping in that it's instant but with jumping all you have is a few seconds of possible regret/fear and then it's over.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Thank you for sharing that, Metavoid. Jumping is one of my methods on the table right now.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Back when I looked into jumping I always imagined it had to be at least a 7 story height I know people say 10 story´s but I remember looking down from the 7th floor in a hospital I have been to a lot of times and that is a really long way down.

Also if I should jump I would not just jump in any position I would jump so I would hit back first so the back of my head would slam against the pavement. I have seen many of suicide jump videos and a lot of them jump so they land feet first but if it´s high enough it will kill you anyway.

 

[Metavoid]

Thank you for sharing that, Metavoid. Jumping is one of my methods on the table right now.

I hope I'm able to help people in the way that if someone wants to commit suicide but pain is their main concern and want something instant that they can be assured from someone who attempted it that it is completely pain free. The only pain I felt was in the hospital.

 

[sadsoul]

I hope I'm able to help people in the way that if someone wants to commit suicide but pain is their main concern and want something instant that they can be assured from someone who attempted it that it is completely pain free. The only pain I felt was in the hospital.

Thank you for sharing this. I didn't know it was pain-free. This makes jumping much more attractive, to me at least.

 

[Metavoid]

Back when I looked into jumping I always imagined it had to be at least a 7 story height I know people say 10 story´s but I remember looking down from the 7th floor in a hospital I have been to a lot of times and that is a really long way down.

Also if I should jump I would not just jump in any position I would jump so I would hit back first so the back of my head would slam against the pavement. I have seen many of suicide jump videos and a lot of them jump so they land feet first but if it´s high enough it will kill you anyway.

Thinking back now, for me personally it would be VERY scary to fall backwards. It's the whole "fear of the unknown" thing. I don't think I could do it. It was definitely easier jumping head first seeing my inevitable (near?) Death.

They say you only need a height of 10 feet to die..

I was on suicide watch in the hospital and whenever I drove my wheelchair to a window everyone would come running lmfao

 

[Metavoid]

Thank you for sharing this. I didn't know it was pain-free. This makes jumping much more attractive, to me at least.

Pain isn't an issue here. It's the fear and fear of regret and fear of fear itself. If you have a fear of heights, it would be very difficult to make that final step, even if you are determined to die. Drugs and alcohol definitely helped. Cocaine would be the best. Something that gives you a "fuck it" attitude.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

The hospital I mention they have locks on the windows so when you open them it opens with a little hydraulic thingy.

I can see why that would be scary but if you have access to it a bet 10 story´s would do the job. But it is surviveable I remember reading about a suicide jumper who survived with "minor" injuries after jumping from a height around that.

btw I am very glad you shared your story with us it gives some insight instead of the biased pro life videos/documentaries made by the government and media of failed suicide jumpers who regretted jumping right after they jumped, clearly they didn´t really want to die then.

 

[Metavoid]

I'd say the regret is more to do with survival instinct than actual regret. I am happy for the people who survived and geniunely are happy they didnt die and have another chance at life. For me, I'm pissed I didn't choose a longer height. 4 stories looked pretty high. Fuck sake I wish I didn't wake up.

 

[Metavoid]

I just saw an old article detailing a man who survived a 47 story fall. What. If anything is gonna prevent me from jumping again, it's that goddamn survivability risk.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I just saw an old article detailing a man who survived a 47 story fall. What. If anything is gonna prevent me from jumping again, it's that goddamn survivability risk.

Yeah I think it was that one I couldn´t remember the height but I remember it was ridiculous how anyone could survive that.

 

[Metavoid]

Yeah I think it was that one I couldn´t remember the height but I remember it was ridiculous how anyone could survive that.

So how would you guarantee death?
- Jump at least 10 stories
- put a bag over your head
- make sure no one finds you and calls an ambulance?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

So how would you guarantee death?
- Jump at least 10 stories
- put a bag over your head
- make sure no one finds you and calls an ambulance?

I think a 12G shotgun loaded with buckshot with the barrel into the mouth aiming at an angle (not upward) is 100% certain it will blow your brains out or head clean off there is no coming back from that.

 

[Metavoid]

I think a 12G shotgun loaded with buckshot with the barrel into the mouth aiming at an angle (not upward) is 100% certain it will blow your brains out or head clean off there is no coming back from that.

I wish I had access to a shotgun.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I wish I had access to a shotgun.

You most likely can get one legally by obtaining a hunting license or a faster method is applying for a license to skeet shoot and shotguns are legal in nearly every country.

Scratch that I just realized while writing this that after your failed suicide attempt will be denied the license damn I´m stupid.

 

[starcrossedfate]

I'm going to gulp painkillers and blood-thinners (just in case) and jump from at least 20 stories head first.

 

[Metavoid]

I'm going to gulp painkillers and blood-thinners (just in case) and jump from at least 20 stories head first.

Holy shit I just thought of something. Decapitating bungee jumping noose of death. Tie some strong line around your neck, secure to building somehow, jump, head flies clean off!!!

 

[starcrossedfate]

Yeah, I remember someone else mentioning that; like using piano wire around one's neck and jumping for a guarantee ctb.

 

[Metavoid]

Yeah, I remember someone else mentioning that; like using piano wire around one's neck and jumping for a guarantee ctb.

I wonder if that would hurt. Like what if you don't get decapitated and instead just strangle in mid air.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I wonder if that would hurt. Like what if you don't get decapitated and instead just strangle in mid air.

It will still break your neck I researched this a lot and it was a common way of execution back in the day you just have to calculate your bodyweight with a certain height and the knot from the noose has to be placed in the right spot and the neck will break and you won´t feel a thing.

 

[Metavoid]

It will still break your neck I researched this a lot and it was a common way of execution back in the day you just have to calculate your bodyweight with a certain height and the knot from the noose has to be placed in the right spot and the neck will break and you won´t feel a thing.

I'd still be too chickenshit to try that. Fuckin hell.

I know this is extremely off topic but I don't wanna start a new thread. What about suicide by having so much sex you get AIDS and die? Is there a name for that? What just made me think of it was a piece of advice I got from someone: if you are ready to give up everything, you can literally do anything. Absolutely anything. Go buy a bunch of drugs, rave, party hard, have a shitload of sex with everyone, basically do all the crazy shit youd do if the apocalypse was near and hopefully die partying too hard before the earth blows up.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'd still be too chickenshit to try that. Fuckin hell.

I know this is extremely off topic but I don't wanna start a new thread. What about suicide by having so much sex you get AIDS and die? Is there a name for that? What just made me think of it was a piece of advice I got from someone: if you are ready to give up everything, you can literally do anything. Absolutely anything. Go buy a bunch of drugs, rave, party hard, have a shitload of sex with everyone, basically do all the crazy shit youd do if the apocalypse was near and hopefully die partying too hard before the earth blows up.

Damn that hit me hard first of all because I have a throat problem so when I do drugs I might risk not being able to eat properly for day, weeks, months and one time even a year after I am also broke I have never been so poor in my life as I am now I haven´t even gotten any money for this month only some money for food by my parents.

Also I am a guy so I can´t just go out and have sex with anyone like girls can.

 

[Metavoid]

Damn that hit me hard first of all because I have a throat problem so when I do drugs I might risk not being able to eat properly for day, weeks, months and one time even a year after I am also broke I have never been so poor in my life as I am now I haven´t even gotten any money for this month only some money for food by my parents.

Also I am a guy so I can´t just go out and have sex with anyone like girls can.

I'm sorry to hear that, about your financial situation. At least you have parents that are giving.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm sorry to hear that, about your financial situation. At least you have parents that are giving.

If they didn´t I would have starved this month but they´re broke as well and even told me that they couldn´t keep giving me money indefinitely it´s the first time I have ever asked them for money I have never asked people for money before in my life.

 

[Metavoid]

If they didn´t I would have starved this month but they´re broke as well and even told me that they couldn´t keep giving me money indefinitely it´s the first time I have ever asked them for money I have never asked people for money before in my life.

I don't know about your financial situation or how much you get per week on food but recently my rent made me only have 30 euro on food for the entire month (that's near poverty where I live) and I ate like a queen - stick to potatoes, carrots, celery, beans, rice, oatmeal and pasta. I bought flour and made my own fresh bread every couple of days. Canned oily fish like sardines are superfoods full of protein and nutrients. You can get chicken carcasses or bones for free from the butcher -make a healthy stock from them. Avoid things like frozen pizzas and other frozen things, cheeses, ready made sauces, ready meals, juice and sweets. It's about filler and nutrition. I hope this helps in a way x

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I don't know about your financial situation or how much you get per week on food but recently my rent made me only have 30 euro on food for the entire month (that's near poverty where I live) and I ate like a queen - stick to potatoes, carrots, celery, beans, rice, oatmeal and pasta. I bought flour and made my own fresh bread every couple of days. Canned oily fish like sardines are superfoods full of protein and nutrients. You can get chicken carcasses or bones for free from the butcher -make a healthy stock from them. Avoid things like frozen pizzas and other frozen things, cheeses, ready made sauces, ready meals, juice and sweets. It's about filler and nutrition. I hope this helps in a way x

The thing is I have a throat problem which I have been operated in my throat 4 times and I am allergic to almost everything I mean it would literally be easier to mention the things I am not allergic to since I am allergic to almost all fruits, vegetables, and nuts.
But recently I often eat potatoes and red lentils. Red lentils is an amazing super food with 27 grams of protein per 100g and I usually make 200g at a time so that is 54 grams of proteins in one meal.

It is also only recently I have become poor because I dropped out of school because I can´t handle it mentally although I got VERY good grades this summer. I had planned to ctb in August and had planned it for years at that certain date but as the date got closer I kept thinking more and more about how it would ruin my parents life so I pussied out and had to go on welfare but I haven´t gotten any money yet. first by next month.

Btw: My throat problem is the biggest reason I want to ctb obviously it has ruined my life I can´t even socialize with people because I can´t eat out so I have lost my friends.

 

[Metavoid]

The thing is I have a throat problem which I have been operated in my throat 4 times and I am allergic to almost everything I mean it would literally be easier to mention the things I am not allergic to since I am allergic to almost all fruits, vegetables, and nuts.
But recently I often eat potatoes and red lentils. Red lentils is an amazing super food with 27 grams of protein per 100g and I usually make 200g at a time so that is 54 grams of proteins in one meal.

It is also only recently I have become poor because I dropped out of school because I can´t handle it mentally although I got VERY good grades this summer. I had planned to ctb in August and had planned it for years at that certain date but as the date got closer I kept thinking more and more about how it would ruin my parents life so I pussied out and had to go on welfare but I haven´t gotten any money yet. first by next month.

Btw: My throat problem is the biggest reason I want to ctb obviously it has ruined my life I can´t even socialize with people because I can´t eat out so I have lost my friends.

You must be very very young. My heart goes out to you.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

You must be very very young. My heart goes out to you.

I am 24 years old and wish every day I was a child again so I feel incredibly old.

 

[Makoto Naegi]

Thank you so much for posting this. One of the main things I'm worried about is the pain, so this is really reassuring.

 

[Metavoid]

Thank you so much for posting this. One of the main things I'm worried about is the pain, so this is really reassuring.

No problem. The only pain is surviving.