Rouge4000
Alone
- Sep 27, 2023
- 61
well it's over for me and im serious this time honestly I was hoping I make it to the right before new years so when I died I could imagine the celebration as if it was celebrating my death but unfortunately I'm not strong enough to hold out as long as I want to. My girlfriend just left me recently and I found out she replaced me literally right after we broke up. She's with him right now and that incredibly destroys me mentally and emotionally,my grades are in a absolute decline and I have a feeling I won't be able to catch up now I don't really have friends who can help me and be there for me I have no one to at really cares and anyone who I ever told makes a joke out of my situation like they don't take me seriously. I literally got told to joking kill myself today and that just made my resolve all the more clearer. Also the reason why I'm so distraught over my girlfriend leaving me is bc she left and recently over getting into a argument over me finding out she had this new guy so quickly I found out she got a abortion THIS Sunday and never planned on telling me. How long did you know? How long did you plan on holding out on me? Where was my say? Even if we both agreed on getting rid of it why wasn't I informed? What kind of women decides to do that to someone? It's for all of these reasons I have decided to kill myself soon. The most available suicide method is train tracks if anyone in the nyc area has any ideas please feel free to lend me some I'd greatly appreciate it
