Discussion My death will be carried out by myself. I'm 99% certain.

[WallTermite]

Every time I get better, there is always something that goes wrong, and I end up having ideas to ctb. This ALWAYS happens. It all leads to this.

I'm not suicidal right now, but I've learnt that life is full of bs. So much that it would be liberating to say "fk it" and just quit. I won't die from old age, I will sabotage my own life when I feel ready. It might be many years from now, but I'm 100% sure it will happen, unless an accident kills me first.

I'm currently focusing on hobbies, but I want someone to shoot me in the head repeatedly sometimes.

Life sucks so much it's almost funny. Just almost.

Discussion open.

 

[badatparties]

I stopped feeling like a special snowflake when i realized a million people worldwide off themselves a year. Those are just the successful ones, not the ones who failed, a good portion of whom are now probably permanently damaged in someway. Then you add all passively suicidal depressed people.

We truly live on some kind of hell planet. It's really hard to see it another way. Trauma on this planet is a feature, not a bug. It's a sick system.

 

[ineedtogetout]

I stopped feeling like a special snowflake when i realized a million people worldwide off themselves a year. Those are just the successful ones, not the ones who failed, a good portion of whom are now probably permanently damaged in someway. Then you add all passively suicidal depressed people.

We truly live on some kind of hell planet. It's really hard to see it another way. Trauma on this planet is a feature, not a bug. It's a sick system.

 

[camusfan_ig]

So much that it would be liberating to say "fk it" and just quit. I won't die from old age, I will sabotage my own life when I feel ready. It might be many years from now, but I'm 100% sure it will happen, unless an accident kills me first.

The thought of dying from old age, your body, your body, slowly decaying until it finally gives up... that scares me. It would be very liberating to give a massive middle finger to life and take your death into your own hands. I also get what you mean when you're 100% you'll die this way, almost like this was already how it was meant to end